a friend is telling me I should go to the ER, I think I'm going to, because it is showing more symptoms of herniated disc, that maybe they'll do something? last time they didn't do anything cuz I didn't have these symptoms. Seems like it's all just getting worse too and I can't deal with this much longer.... having pain in my leg, that I've had before but never associated it with this, it's not usually this bad and I usually ignore it, but it's not as bad as what I've heard sciatica is like either... but maybe at least with the leg pain and hurting more when I cough, maybe they'll actually do something at the ER
Going to try to find someone to come out here and watch the critters... and find someone to take me...
Well, I had an exciting night.... stubborn alcoholic me decided I could drive myself to the ER... the woman that had been offering to help me out was in Memphis when I was talking to her, and she asked if I needed someone to take me, and I told her I'd just drive myself, cuz I didn't want anyone to have to pick me up in the middle of the night if they sent me home.... Well.... I have driven when it's pretty bad before and dealt with it and was ok....
So I start heading out there, made it maybe 10 miles up the highway, and felt like I was gonna pass out from the pain, was shaky and felt numb and tingly all over. I had to pull over, waited a bit to see if it's subside and it didn't really, I called an ambulance to come get me. I felt so stupid..... called my bf while I was waiting for the ambulance and he tried to get me to relax, I was finally almost ok when the ambulance got there, I was at least able to walk to the ambulance, got in and laid down.... was so out of it from the pain, had a hard time answering questions... then the ride in the ambulance was so bumpy that I was back to that feeling like I was gonna pass out by the time I got to the hospital. They had to put me in a wheelchair to take me in.
Got through triage, waited for the dr... dr finally came in, was a total prick, hardly said a word to me, and said he was gonna get me medicine and left. Laid there and waited awhile longer, and the triage nurse came back in with prescriptions and discharge papers. But at least since everywhere I could get prescriptions filled at were closed, she got the dr to let me have one pain pill for last night. He gave me loratab, which I'd never taken before.... took about an hour and a half for it to kick in last night but I did finally get tired and the pain finally subsided a bit.
Got the woman I'd been talking to to come get me from the ER. Her son was in that town so we met up with him and they helped me get my car home. She's gonna take me to get my prescription filled today.
I shoulda known they wouldn't do anything, but it was so bad night before last that I had to hope that they would. woke up hurting pretty bad again this morning.... I'll get the pain pills, but I only take pain pills at night, so that I can sleep, I try to tolerate it during the day... I never had a problem with pain pills, but I don't like taking them.
Anyway.... so, I'm home, and get to deal with this a couple more weeks I guess.... they did tell me to follow up with my regular doctor next week, and keep the appt with the orthopedic dr on the 15th.
Hey Lisa, Hope by now your feeling a little better. Try to take your pain pills on a regular basis(however many hours apart they prescribed them) until you see someone. Pain is harder to control and takes longer to get relief if you dont have a constant stream going. You say pills arent a problem so try it!? Who am I to say but you sound awful. I still cant figure out how to get online here. Will work on it later but Im glad your giving it a shot. It cant hurt to try a meeting like that. I have to leave for my kids football game. They are going to state championship and I and hubby volunteered to help with parking. Games at 700 and shoot, have to be there at 430. So, take care..Lani
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Lani, I will take them regularly if they do any good...... reason I don't like taking them is because last spring they'd given me a muscle relaxer, that didn't really work. I never abused it, I took it as prescribed, but continued taking it every 4 hours even though it wasn't doing any good, finished the prescription, and didn't let myself get the refill. I don't like that frame of mind I have, that well, maybe it'll start working if I keep taking it. The lortab seemed to at least help a bit last night though, so I'll give it a shot.
My friend just sent her daughter over here to get my prescriptions, her daughter's headed to a town near here, and walmart's on her way, so she's gonna drop them off and get my refill picked up too for my asthma inhaler, been managing without it for a few days which isn't good... gave her one of my credit cards to pay for it... I've gotta find some way to get cash, I'm sure I can trust these people but I don't know them all that well really. Gonna have to get to the bank at some point cuz I got my check in the mail, and have another check coming from my exhusband, and need to go get a checking account opened and get cash, and get cashiers checks to pay my credit cards and some old dr bills from last spring... got a lot of past due bills I haven't been able to pay...
Trying to find someone who can come out here and help out a bit... my dishes are piled up real bad, I can't stand at the sink and do dishes, it's one of the hardest things on my back, and I don't have a dishwasher either. Gonna have to try to do them a little at a time I guess.... the friend that picked me up from the hospital and is having her kids help out, she's been sick too so I don't want to ask her for too much cuz I know she's not feeling great either. Was hoping I can get someone to pick up some groceries for me, quick easy things I can fix myself, and maybe cook up some stuff I have here where I can just heat it up.
This is so frustrating, I hate feeling so helpless. And I push it too much, I try to do things on my own cuz I don't like asking for help, I don't like this helpless needy feeling. but I know I can't push it much now, it's killing me enough even with NOT doing anything. bf said I'm a stubborn hardheaded alkie and should've known not to drive last night, told me to stay in bed and not get up unless I have to lol
Sorry I've been rambling so much.... my mind's all screwed up dealing with all this, and I'm either really out of it or my mind is racing, one or the other, no peace of mind for me lately.... *sigh*
Time to surrender & operate under advice me thinks, Lisa! I can't blame you for wanting to get out there & try to help yourself. That feeling helpless was doing your head in but maybe you've abated your curiosity for the moment & bought yourself some patience ;) I hope you don't have to suffer for much longer but at least you have a little plan there & just take it easy in the mean time, hey x Stay along with us & moan all you want. You'll be well & sharing the love & relief soon enough. With you in prayers, Danielle x
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surrender and operate under advice? I'm really not good at that..... lol but yes, I have learned my lesson now..... I got my pain meds, took them, they were working, finally wasn't hurting any more, they didn't knock me out. And I was really needing some laundry done, so figured it wouldn't hurt anything to throw some in the washer and hang them to dry when they're done, right? wouldn't be standing all that long.... Well, I forgot my friend's son put the dog food on top of the washer, 40lb bag.... there's only about 2 feet between the washer and dryer, I figured if I'm not having to actually lift it up off the floor, just move it to the dryer, then I could do that, right? NOT.... ugh. got me hurting again. I've got about half an hour till I can take more meds. I'm stayin put in bed.... I was stubborn enough to get the clothes in the washer, and the washer's stopped, but I'm not gettin up. Just gonna leave them there for now.
I learned my lesson. Bed rest means staying in bed, limited activity does not mean lifting 40lbs.... lol
I talked to my dad, he's coming out sometime next week, to bring my furniture that my exhusband finally got out to his office, and bring the check from him. He said he'll get me a piece of plywood cut for my bed, I was told that would help, cuz the bed's too soft, and this futon is too hard, but the futon's been better than the bed at least. Haven't heard back from my mom yet, but she's off monday, so gonna try to get her to come out and help.... she should be home from work and calling soon... and bf will be calling soon, so gonna sign off, try to just rest for a little bit till my phone starts ringing again lol
