Hi All: Sounds like everyone is doing great and hangin in there one day at a time eh!? I love hearing all the words of wisdom everyone has to offer. Still havent got a job but had a few interviews. My problem is, Im picky and dont want to work the night shift! (I could have a job alot sooner if Id work nights) It about killed me when I did it for a year and a half!! My husband is on my butt to get something, anything for now. I tried to explain to him that being a nurse you have to do whats right for you. My old fears of being a new graduate are creeping in. I think thats probably my biggest problem! FEAR!! I dont want to take a job where I'll mess up!! Alky thoughts!!! (although Im sure non alkies fear the same thing) So for now I keep praying that the right thing will come along! Starting to get bored, not good!!! So today the plan is to hit a noon meeting and lots of after school activities and home group tonight. Last night I heard "anything you put before your sobriety, you will lose!" This is the weird part. Since I started going to AA, some of you know, Ive struggled a bit. Get so many days in ("the revolving door" as someone said, ) and then drink, and so on, while continuing to go to meetings everyday!!! Someone also explained that your HP will put things before you that you wont like but have to deal with. Im not sure if Im explaining this right but Ive had all these "?bad" things happen since Ive been in AA and dabbling.. Daughter caught drinking, lost my job, lost trust with my family even more since I choose to pick up again!!! Can I be so naive to believe these things wouldnt have happened if I was to really work the program?! Playing with fire I am!! But havent drank YET!! But know if I continue to do so my family is probably the next thing I'll lose....I dont know if this helps anyone else, but it helped to get it all out..... So have a great day, its gloomy here! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
boy i got that feeling of being in a washing machine on spin cycle just from reading your post. Thanks for keeping sober today! whoa! Lani, sometime (most times) it's easier to get a job when you already have one, and possibly easier to find a better job that way as well. consider taking a job temporarily to keep you busy while you're looking for that "perfect" job. LOL. Your hubby would probably like that and you don't want to start having money issues, unless I'm getting the wrong impression here, but even so it hurts to dip into the savings to make bills. I've prayed for a lot of work, and my higher power delivers every time, but he is not as picky as I am. I heard it described one time "that God takes the most direct path, when answering prayers" followed closely by "be careful what you pray for".
Thanks for the response Dean, Wishing doesnt get you much, knew I should have gotten a new job before getting canned from the old one!!! So, taking your advise and praying on it, HARD! I also feel like Im in a washing machine!!! AUUUGGH! Really felt like drinking a few minutes ago. But it will only make things worse. That honesty thing is kickin up!! Anyways, thanks again!! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Hang in there Lani, get out and enjoy nature, take a walk or a bikeride. Pretty soon you'll be back at work kicking yourself for staying in the house. I'm going for a motorcycle ride and some lunch. seeya!
Hey Dean, Unlike you lucky Floridians, OH gets so gloomy, rainy and cold in the fall and winter. I have been trying to get out to lunch, bike rides and meeting the girls for some fun. Today, was just one of those days where I really got frightened by all that is going on. Nothing to do about it but pray it will get better. My wise sponser says in GODS time, not mine. Kinda cool today, I called one of my old patients to say hi and sing a little to her!!! She was so cute and said she missed me alot. She made me feel sooooo good. So, glad I did it. Well, hitting meeting number 2 today!!! Take care ya bum!!! Lani (Three calls today re: jobs, have an interview at 1:00 tomorrow. Sorry to go on and on about job stuff but realize I have worked all my life!! Its just new. And I do agree, next week, hopefully, haha, I'll be gripping cuz I have to work!!!)
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
too bad you're so firmly entrenched there with the kids in school etc... there is such a big demand for RN's in FL that recruiters are working full time, and they are paying bonuses and down payment on houses and such to try and fill the void. It's only going to get worse as many of the retiring Baby Boomers are coming here.
hi Lani! I am an Ohioan too, and right about now I wish I had your degree! Plenty in my area for nurses right now.. I am in NE Ohio near Cleveland Clinic and Summa.... Are you in that vicinity?
I am finishing my EKG Tech classes and certification in the next 8 weeks, and then I get to do 164 hours of clinicals, first of the year. I am looking forward to going back to work after having been in school again for the past year. My dear husband has taken on all of the financial needs like a real champ this past year.
It is strange... I worked as a Surgical Tech for a few years and found the stress to be a major factor that was interfering with my DESIRE to stay sober at the time. I know I have to be willing to stay sober no matter what, but facing going back to work soon is a slight trigger for me, which has gotten my mind going in the wrong direction lately, coming up on 3 years sober here. That is part of my reason for coming back to MIP after some time wawy. I need to get plugged in in as many ways as I can right now.
Well, that is enough of my ramble here... good luck on the job prospects, Lani, and message me any time!
Joni 91 days smoke-free too! :o)
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Thanks guys! Another day sober!!! Thank my HP for that because for me it would have been so easy to "pick up" (always hated that term), yesterday!! But, "willing to stay sober no matter what" -thanks Joni. Best of luck in school! It is alot of work but worth it! Just dont mess it up like me! HEEHEE! Dont let anything mess with 3 years of sobriety! Or 92 days smoke free!!!! Congrats! I wouldnt mind someday relocating or being a travel nurse. Next couple years is not an option! Ive had calls from recruiters already but dont want to travel to far. Planning on calling Michigan University today..Even though my dogs name is Buckeye!!! So, as I woke up today, I realize the saga of life will just continue on. So I'll go with the flow and pray for the best (for all of us!!) Nothing like "dont make any changes in the first year!!" Im the Queen of that!!! Enjoy your day!!!! Lani
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