Starting to feel some better the last couple days. Discovered in a f2f that I am feeling 'homesick' - John always felt like 'home' to me! He called me Sunday night to let me know he'd made it to AL. He went on the bike, 600 miles, and knew I'd worry! What a guy, huh! I've done well on not initiating contact. Then, I got home yesterday to an email from him. Just chatty stuff (the weather, the job, etc) which tells me he misses me, BUT the nature of our relationship hasn't changed. I haven't responded, and don't know if I will.......
Topic at F2F the other day was Maintenance. Man! I needed to hear that. That's what I'd stopped doing. I'd stopped maintaining my sobriety. Someone said 'if we don't maintain our homes or cars, they will eventually fall apart'. So very true of sobriety, too. It will fail if I don't do the maintenance, daily! Steps 1, 10, 11 & 12 are part of my daily routine now.. I'm working on Step 4, again, and re-read it last night. DANG! It seems to all be about John this time. I felt sick to my stomach when I realized I'm jealous of his children (how sick is that!!!)... I've got a lady in mind I'm going to ask to temp sponsor me, but haven't seen her the last few meetings. I like her, she has good quality sobriety, I trust her and I feel comfortable with her. I'm hoping she'll accept, cause Step 5 is coming up.....
My Yoga class folded, not enough participants, so I'm back to looking for another. Made it to the gym twice this week, and plan to hit the track later on today after a F2F. Thought of putting a notice on the AA board to see if anyone's interested in starting a Yoga class with me, or atleast hitting the track with me sometimes.
Me Ebay auctions are going well. Sold 1 item yesterday, got a couple bids on another, and several watchers on the 3rd! It's been fun and exciting. I plan to keep it up. If nothing else, it keeps me busy and out of my own head when I'm at home alone.
Thanks for letting me share...........Love, peace and hugs to all!
Jen
-- Edited by Doll at 08:33, 2007-10-06
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Thanks for sharing and also talking about maintaining sobriety. I so needed to read that today. You have reminded me that I'm no longer maintaining my sobriety and I know that I need to do it.
I do hope that you'll find a temp sponsor and do your step 5 with her. I can feel the need for another step four coming up in me.
Take good care of yourself, won you? You're worth it.
Carol
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Hey Doll! Happy to see you're doing better. Now, what is it you're selling on ebay? Michelle and I have a bunch of 78 r.p.m. record collections, mostly opera with some Christian, and they are in great shape. I've thought of putting them out there, but have never sold anything, only bought. If you have any thoughts or tips you can put them on here or p.m. me. Thanks and (((hugs)))...Tim
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I've done well on not initiating contact. Then, I got home yesterday to an email from him. Just chatty stuff (the weather, the job, etc) which tells me he misses me, BUT the nature of our relationship hasn't changed. I haven't responded, and don't know if I will.......
