Unmanageability The reasons my life is unmanageable ;
My thinking (past and present) eg my beliefs, perceptions that faulty filter My drinking and using My obsession to drink and use Finding ways and means to drink and use The consequences of the above
solution......acceptance that all of the above is in need of attention and that i am unable to do it alone that i need to find faith in a power greater than me to move forward. That faith involves eliminating immediate problem (first things first) and to stay away from the first drink or drug and to ask for help.
Am i ready for step three? Do i understand the problem?
Lot of food for thought, in those few short lines..
Keep an open mind, as I share this...
But I dont really think that I fully comprehened step three, until I did a thorough Step 4 and 5.
And went on to take a good look at 6 and 7..
I hung on to control for a long time....with all the isms...and skeletons in closets...
And wondered why...after different periods of time...everything would go for a crap...
When they talk about self centeredness..and self will run riot....they were right on with this kid..
We arrest this disease....which to me? We do nothing more then put it on hold...
All the isms....are still below the surface, ready to raise their ugly heads at any time...and some days...they do...Awareness is a biggy...and knowing how to put things on stop, in a hurry...and starting again...by letting go of the reins...
Im an alky who can go from 0 to 60...in 3 seconds flat...and insanity returns...
When life is good.....I sometimes forget.....
Something negative happens, and the crap is dispersed all over the room with a vengence...
Daily thing...
Unmanageabilty? ooooooo yaaaaaaa :)
Have a good day eh..
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Live each day as if it were your last...because tomorrow?
It might be.
Thanks for that Phil, you are so good ! I am so grateful for your share, my understanding is i am making a decision (no action in that) to turn my will (thinking) and life (actions) to a god of my understanding. Until 4&5 i can't fully understand these and 6&7 will give me further insight and acceptance of me (good bad and ugly) I'm so relieved to hear that self will creeps into your day and that you are no stranger to self obsession which throws its self at me in different guises I believe awareness and recognition are essential and probably the most practical tools and the rest is practice
I believe awareness and recognition are essential and probably the most practical tools and the rest is practice 
