Well as usual, I am going to complain about work!! I think that messes w/ my sobriety more than anything!!I dont even know where to begin...Anyways, we're having a nursing meeting on Friday.. Comments Ive heard is "feelings are going to be hurt", "oh it will def be a bitch session" I guess bottom line is... Rather then going on and on, I would love and appreciate any prayers all of you have to make Friday at 4:00 serene and a learning session for all. I dont want to stand on my soap box and try to tell everyone that They probably need AA too b/c they are as or more messed up as me. Wouldnt it be great if everyone could practice the principles and steps of AA? Im scared, want to quit, cried b/c my feelings were hurt BAD today!!! But < I have a family to support. It's funny how RAW my feelings are right now. But like I said, bottom line, PRAY for us all!!!Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Yes, it would be wonderful if everybody practiced the AA principles. But, that just doesn't happen, unfortunately. One thing is that you are practicing all of AA's principles and that will help you so much.
Please know that you'll be in my thoughts.
Please post and let us know how it goes for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Hi lani...... I can definatley identify with your situation.....I go to a job every day at 4am that I HATE! The stress is high, the people are back stabbers and will do anything to get ahead, and I know this is not what I was meant to do..........so.........every morning, I remind myself why I'm there - food, clothes, shelter, health insurance, etc, and I ask God to get me thru one more day.....then I thank him graciously for this job......It helps........Hang in there.......you're in my prayers.........
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Hi Lani - I was also glad to read your post, because I've been struggling with my work as well. More than anything, I just feel lost in what I am doing. I used to pretty much enjoy most of what I do, and now I can't really say that. And my boss says things that I don't know how to take - I walk around wondering if I was just insulted! But I have been trying to do gratitude lists about work, and focus on myself. It's funny because part of my feeling bad about work is my tendency to screw around (heck, I'm at work now). I keep justifying it in different ways, but I know better. Oh well. I just keep praying every day when I walk in the door, asking that I be helpful. I let the "how" be up to God, cause likely I'll screw that up anyway. Being in this world with other people is hard (and it made it much easier to drink to escape!) I'll pray for you at 4:00, but somehow I feel like you'll be fine anyway.
Hi all... Thank you sooo much for responding!! Im at lunch right now and just wanted to say hello and thanks! Will fill you in after the meeting tomorrow! Now I need to find a needle and thread to sew my mouth shut in hope's I dont say anything II'll regret!! HAAHAA Love ya's Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
It's been a long time since I had a job (self employed) so consider the source lol.
What comes to mind is that "You own your feelings", not any of those people at work. It's your reaction to what they say or do that hurts you and nothing else. Empower yourself. This is one of those things that they talk about when they say "Drop the Rock". It is very hard for me to detach from my negative feelings, but when I make a conscious decision to not react before I walk into a situation that I know is difficult I wind up keeping my composure. In your initial post you described your apprehension and more or less predicted that your feeling were going to be hurt. Doesn't sound like there's much of chance of it being otherwise. You can decide to listen to their ideas and not take anything personally. After all work is a place that we go to to bring home money to pay the bills. It's not the real world, it's more of an illusion. What you do has nothing to do with who you are. If it did then you would be a "Human Do-ing" instead of a Human Be-ing. So do what they want you to do and Be Happy. Btw, I was the worst employee ever, so I had no choice besides working for myself. (read failure if it makes you laugh)
My sponsor has told me several times we live in a dysfunctional society, and indeed we do!
The best that I can do is practice the principles of AA in all of my affairs, including at work.
I've definitely had more than one job where I've had to button my lip and pray a lot!
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"There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguements and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance-that principle is contempt prior to investigation."
~Herbert Spencer
I left something out. Every time I go into a rough situation, I ask my Higher Power to go with me and help me to retain my sanity and composure. I am totally useless if I let my emotions take control. I don't deny my feelings, I just make a deal with myself that I will assess my fellings a few hours later after the experience gels.
By that time I've already "no big dealed it". Another useful tool is to ask yourself, "what's the worst case senario?". "Am I going to die?" no, "will I be banished from society?" no, "will my family disown me?" no, Will I have to sleep outside tonight and miss a few meals?" no. Follow that up with a gratitude list and you'll smile all the way thru the meeting.
