My blog (you can find it in my profile) needs some updated material, and Im kinda at a loss.. writers block mabye lol. If any one would like to post thier story (how it was, what happend, what it's like now), or your experiance with alcohol, or any other unique suitable material , feel free to PM me. . I'll put it up and keep it anonymous for ya.
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My warranty on tomorrow has run out. My guarantee on the past is void. Nothing is going my way... and I like it like that.
I don't know that my writing style is what you'd be looking for in this case, but I'd be more than happy to share some stuff. Unfortunately I deleted a couple blogs full of stuff but I just posted a couple up here:
http://misunderstandingjesus.blogspot.com/
...so you can take a look.
I have a bunch somewhere but can't find it on this hard drive. I've been remodeling and have been working off of three computers and lost a back-up drive so who knows- hopefully it's not all gone forever.
So check it out- no worries if it's not your cup of tea. I'm pretty thick skinned.
Miller, Went into both your's and Toby's blogspots. Both are excellent reads. I must say, however, in my mind's eye, from reading your posts here I had you "pictured as someone much older. Your words here are usually short sweet and to the point. Often an indication of someone who by YEARS of age have been refined though a not set in concrete method. I don't know what I could offer to either of these spots. As you both are aware I'm an ALANONER. I've traveled the road through alcoholism.......from the otherside......to which you both have now somewhat crossed over to and are finding the beautiful things of this life in sobriety. I would like to comment that having gone through all that I have, there was ALOT that I didn't know. Well at least that I never I guess took to heart in as far as what I, me, myself shouldv'e. When things in my own personal situation had come to a point of devastion that is when there was investigated the view from the otherside. Reading all that could be from the view of those who drank and their stories. I've come to understand you and your peers soooo much better. In turn it has made me question, rethink and change my attitude/view of those fighting this disease. The physical aspects are often most apparent, however, it is the mental, emotional, and spiritual.......the unseen.... that is the hardest for those of us who have relationships with alcoholics to understand. This is what your stories have given to me. That glimpse inside to understand better what you feel, think ect. Being honest with ourselves is the hardest thing to face. Conquering our own defects is tough. Whatever side of the fence we come from in facing this disease, togethor, we learn from one another. Hopefully, others will take advantage of reading your blogs and something within will "hit home". And thank you both.
On a more personal note: Toby, It is really good to see you again. Youv'e been quiet for sometime. Wondered how the hurricane/tropical storm had effected your state, family, home ect. Could visualize you out there before the waters got to rough catching the waves. Glad you are safe.
Miller, How is the grandbaby? My daughter gave me my first July 12th. I was honored to get to witness the birth. Awesome!!!! Tonight I get the chance to "babysit" him the first time.......maybe. This will be the first time for the parents to have some alone time as a couple........ Ironically, it is "Dad" who is havng the separation anxieties about going without him. LOL Hope you are enjoying your's as much as I am.
Toby, It is really good to see you again. Youv'e been quiet for sometime. Wondered how the hurricane/tropical storm had effected your state, family, home ect. Could visualize you out there before the waters got to rough catching the waves. Glad you are safe.
Our hurricanes are as a rule more anticlimax than anything else. I've been offline a bit mostly because I'm busy raising the little boy and also my eyes have begun to get tired really quick in front of a screen, even with my reading glasses. Plus life has just become super busy lately, and I start a project in a couple weeks that will have me away from the office a lot. Which actually will be kind of a nice change.
"Your words here are usually short sweet and to the point. Often an indication of someone who by YEARS of age have been refined though a not set in concrete method."
Ive learned through the program of AA to open my mind to the idea that everything Ive ever known in life may be different from the way I once saw it... And that everything COULD change again tomorrow. That everything is NOT set in concrete. I guess Im not that old... 45, but half my life drinking seems like alot of years.. Thanks for taking a look at the blog. You do have something to offer, as you have knowledge of what it's like to know someone afflicted. And since my blog doesnt promote AA, it's OK that your alanon. There's some fine wisdom in your reply to this post as a matter of fact, and Id like to use some of it with your permission. The grand kids are great BTW. One turns two tomorrow, and I get to pick up the "Dora" cake for the party. LOL
Thanks for the offer Toby. Im sure there's something there I would be happy to use. (edit) In fact I did. Great stuff! Be well, and dodje them hurricanes. :)
-- Edited by miller2 at 14:36, 2007-08-25
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My warranty on tomorrow has run out. My guarantee on the past is void. Nothing is going my way... and I like it like that.
Thanks Miller for putting that up! I'm the absolute laziest about publishing (truth be told it goes farther than lazy- probably leans more towards hating rejection as to why I rarely submit.) I'll put some more stuff up there on my blog as I find it, and I'll message you when there's something substantial. Feel free to use any of it.
Miller, Of course, if there was something in my post that can be of use to ANYONE either fighting the disease or coping with another's, you may use it. For a long time I sat silent just reading........ All that I did know was that someone I loved very deeply (and still do) was destroying himself, me, our marriage and in turn effecting our children. I could CLEARLY see the physical....labored breathing, impotence, combativeness (at times), ect ect ect. Remotely verbally suggesting the connection to alcohol to him ....... it was a roller coaster ride......one minute agreement and the next...... And yes, I was no angel..... though I knew many of the effects......I wasn't thinking of "my role" in the scheme of things.....was becoming more and more angered, resentful, ect. Though my religion (Catholism) had taught me the basics I could not see how I was not thinking and "taking to heart" alot of those things......MYSELF........until I began the journey of trying to walk in the other's shoes. I respect highly you and so many others for turning your lives around but more so for what you have taught me. Thanks, Wanda
