Being still inexperienced and having just made conscious contact with God, it is not probable that we are going to be inspired at all times. ALCOHOLIC ANONYMOUS , p. 87
Some say that experience is the best teacher, but I believe that experience is the only teacher. I have been able to learn of God's love for me only by the experience of my dependence on that love. At first I could not be sure of His direction in my life, but now I see that if I am to be bold enough to ask for His guidance, I must act as if He has provided it. I frequently ask God to help me remember that He has a path for me.
*********************************************************** ***On this day 2 yrs ago, was the first time I walked thru the AA doors. It was a Sunday night speaker meeting and I was terrified. The speaker was into his story about 1/4 of the way and I knew I never had to be alone again and I felt at home for the first time in my life.....Now mind you, I went back out 38 days later, for a weekend, returned with a new 'attitude' and managed 10 months that time! Went back out for a another weekend and returned again with some gratitude.... So, I think I should be coming up on about a year now ?????? Regardless, my life has not been the same since this day 2 yrs ago......God bless you all! Have a grateful, sober 24 .......
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Wow, what a good reading today. My first book to read is the Big Book. This book was the second book I leaerned to read everyday when I first got Sober. I walked into the rooms of A.A. 13 plus years ago to find out that I was very sick. I had a disease of Alcoholism and I couldn't shake it without HELP. I had tried and tried on my own for years. I had hit so many bottoms my face was on the ground and my feet were on my face.
No one understood me or my illnessess even in my Sobriety back then, I had more than ALcoholism, I had another hidden Mental disorder that wasn't diagnosed until years later after all the alcohol was gone, drugs were gone and cigerettes were gone. I am an Alcoholic with Manic Depression, but I am BLESSED by the GRACE of GOD. I AM SOBER, TREATED, and I LOVE GOD, I am Forgiven, I forgive Others today, and God Loves me.
Dr. Bob and Bill write about the ALcoholic that could take up an entire Chapter about, the manic depressive types. THe only reason I have stayed Sober is I believe because "GOD HEALED ME" completely. I believe that working with a SPONSOR, WORKING THE 12-STEPS HONESTLY, GOING To MEETINGS, and BEING BORN-AGAIN into THE FAMILY OF GOD. Is WHY I am SOBER TODAY.
I am to give away what I have or I will not stay Sober with any kind of peace of mind. So I am online doing meetings day after day. I don't have to leave the house to go to a meeting right now. I can just walk over to the Computer and with the click of a mouse. I am in a beautiful place right now. God is in CONTROL! I turn my life and my will over to him today.
Your post reminded me so much of my first AA meeting. I had 'phoned the AA helpline on the Saturday and went to my first meeting on the following Monday evening. I was so scared and didn't know what to expect. But, as soon as I heard the speaker starting to tell her story, I knew that I was in the right place.
That was over three years ago now. I stayed with AA for eight weeks and went back out for eighteen months. But, I always knew that AA was going to be my 'home'. I am just so truly grateful that I went back and it is now over a year since my last drink.
Thank you for reminding me of how far my journey has progressed.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
AND aren't we all the better that you have done this. By doing so you are now able to share what you have went through to get where you are now and inspire others to take up sobriety! wanda
Regardless, my life has not been the same since this day 2 yrs ago......God bless you all! Have a grateful, sober 24 .......