I have been fighting this monkey on my back for years. Was able to stay sober for almost a year then last Feb. relasped big time. Started going to meetings and did goog again. In the last two weeks I really screwed up. Got drunk, fought with my husband, called 911 (we were both drunk) got arrested you may know the rest. On Tuesday bought a fifth, got drunk again ended up in the hospital. I am really fighting the urge to buy a bottle today. Any suggestions? Called my sponser an waiting for a callback.
Well I do hope you get talking to your sponser, and well hope all goes well. We are perfect as far as anything else goes.
I'll be praying for you and hope that you'll get on the right track, and please get to a meeting when feel the erge to drink or think about calling someone else in the program when you can't get a hold of your sponser.
Welcome Just Me Before i came to AA i could not evan get 24 hours without a drink....i would tell myselve that i am not going to drink no matter what ...by evening was drunk again ....for years i was in and out of jail ...hospitals ...and every time i would get some days sober ...it would get worce each time i drank..it never did ...till i finally ende up in a Detox for 5 days got out ...got some phone # went to AA meetings ..and wen times got bad i learn how to pick up a phone talk to another AAer...you will be suprize how that can change the way you are thinking ......BEFOR THEY HAD THE PROGRAM OF AA..THE BIG BOOK..TWO GUYS TALK EACH OTHER OUT OF DRINKING THAT WAS BILL W AND DR BOB THAT WORK THEN ..AND IT STILL WORKS
But i agree with Doll and Tina ...call aa hotline ..get more numbers go to meetings ..take the action to get and stay sober..sponcer steps ..prayer ....good luck to you
Hi Just Me, Boy does that ever sound like a familiar scenario.
I agree with what you've been told---the only way to break this cycle is to get back to meetings, hit them hard, and get those numbers and a sponsor. It is far too hard to get through this phase by yourself. You need support of an immediate kind. Call the hotline and find someone to talk talk talk. I'm sorry I read this so late. The insanity of that cycle, cripes, and even though it doesnt feel like there's a way out of it, there really is. We've all been there. Some of us (like me) went "back out" and fell back into the chaos almost immediately. Sometimes going to a detox for a few days helps. Or even a longer term rehab to help you identify your triggers. Please let us know how you're doing. My heart is sure with you right now. Wow, memories..Chris
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"Never argue with an idiot... They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience..."
It took me a long time to stop picking up again, but if I can do it, anybody can. For me, the trick was getting to more meetings and getting as many 'phone numbers as I could and using them.
I hope that your sponsor called you and that you will be feeling stronger today. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things go for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I hope that you don't wait too long before you reach out to another recovering alcoholic. Do you have a phone list? Use it. Call another lady, try calling your sponsor back, go to a nooner if 1 is available. Go to a meeting tonight. Read your big book. Pray. Ask yourself. "can I stay sober for just 1 day?" 1hour? 1 minute? I'll be praying for you...
I too am fighting for sobriety. I binge drank all weekend, and suffered from the withdrawls yesterday to be able to make it to work today. Im so sick of this shit. I struggled mightily yesterday, I didnt sleep hardly at all, sweating tossing turning. I made it through the day today, and now I want a drink. I cant believe it. I know how it ends up, almost everytime. My g friend and I fought all weekend, so I curled in bed with a bottle, or several, drank until I passed out and drank again. I had been doing a real good job of not drinking, but the long weekend with her away gave me all the time I needed to hide my binging.
Ive been wanting to end relationships wiht people I love so I can continue to hide whats going on. Again, though I dont need the added stress of a relationship when trying to fight for sobriety. What do I do.
We can't hide from our problems inside a bottle. It's not dealing with life, with people, places or things & certainly not with ourselves. It only ever defers our problems & they don't go away. We can lose things but we don't get to lose ourselves except, perhaps in that of ultimate self~destruction. Try to keep that bottle down & go to some meetings. Get a list & get some numbers. Carry on talking with others who understand & are working the program. You may not stop straight away but you'll be in with a chance & then when you manage to keep the bottle down you'll be in with a chance at life too. It takes time & definitely effort on our part. Take those steps & don't give up. You both have my care & prayers. Good luck with your meetings. They're the best place I found to help change my life. I hope it can work for you too, Love & Prayers, Danielle x
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Good on you, Eddy, try not to worry about the 'next big binge'. Try & think on the 'next right thing' you can do. It's ok to make mistakes. We learn to move on from them in A.A. & not beat ourselves up. We can give ourselves a right hard time. You did a fantastic thing getting to that meeting last night. Well done. Make a great effort to get to your next few too. A thousand mile journey begins with one step & you've already made a start. Hold fast. You'll be ok. Babysteps. Wishing you the best. Keep coming back & keep sharing with us. I, for one, am rooting for you & we're not alone. Danielle x
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Going to a meeting today. Havent drank since. Doing good. I will continue to check back. I was at a Baseball game last night, and everybody was out drinking. I had the urge for just that one beer, but the truth of the matter is I know its never just one. Plus thank of the money I saved.
