Just wanted to say I was able to get to a meeting tonight, it's been a while. And sitting through the meetin well just what I need, afterwards I left and well, just went into tears. the feeling of be overwhelme hit me, and well needed to cry and let go.
It felt good do that, but I'm all better now, what a concept, that's what happens when your routine of going to meetings screw up when certain every day life comes into play, just what the doctor order or I should say my inself said I need.
Hang in there, Tina. I read somewhere that the tears we cry are God's way of "washing" the soul while simultaneously giving it a need drink. I interpret that as "letting go" (the negative) and giving me courage and strength to do my best to "grow" (the positive) At times life does seem overwelming and we need to do just what you did. Take a "time out" to cry and let go........and take that little sip towards growth. Hugs, Wanda
I didn't realise crying was letting go. I used to think it was feeling sorry for myself so didn't know how to grieve properly. I grieved this way in a meeting once when the numbness cracked & I was able to mourn for all the mistakes & foolish things I'd done in the past & for who I'd been & started to feel compassion for myself & that it was ok to share tears as well as laughter. I got in touch with my feelings & stopped feeling ashamed except I did put myself down in one small way to a fellow member when asked saying 'I was feeling sorry for myself'. I'm learning how not to do this & simply tell my truth as it is right then. I don't have to minise my feelings any more. It doesn't serve a purpose. Absolute honesty is healing. Thanks for sharing your tears with us too, Tina. I'm glad you found solace & letting go inside them. I hope we're all learning to do this well. Yours in recovery, Danielle x
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i feel the upmost spiritual when I do let go, and my feelings get in the way right along with my frustrations. But being able to shed tears is one of the most spiritual wakenings one could have.
