Where other people were concerned, we had to drop the word "blame" from our speech and thought. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 47
When I become willing to accept my own powerlessness, I begin to realize that blaming myself for all the trouble in my life can be an ego trip back into hopelessness. Asking for help and listening deeply to the messages inherent in the Steps and Traditions of the program make it possible to change those attitudes which delay my recovery. Before joining A.A., I had such a desire for approval from people in powerful positions that I was willing to sacrifice myself, and others, to gain a foothold in the world. I invariably came to grief. In the program I find true friends who love, understand, and care to help me learn the truth about myself. With the help of the Twelve Steps, I am able to build a better life, free of guilt and the need for self-justification.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
You know this was really awesome for me. I do not yet have a "Big Book" but am looking to get one soon, I'm new to AA and I'm feeling the many great things it can do.... I just celebrated my 30 days on Friday and I feel good but know I'm not even close to being safe. I guess this really touched me because guilt is a big thing I'm dealing with right now and allot of the time I feel guilt and don't even know what for, I feel ashamed for even being seen and don't know why, hopefully someday it will come to me and that awefull mind screwing will go away. Today has been especially hard I've been on a mind rollercoaster ride and wondered if I'm insane, man where the hell do some of these weird thoughts come from. I've tried everything to get them out, nothing has worked..... Then tonight I went to a meting and bam came home happy filled full of life, and now all the sudden, my glass was half full...... Thank you all for your great love and support..... Thanks.... Again..undefined
