Only Step One, where we made the 100 percent admission we were powerless over alcohol, can be practiced with absolute perfection. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 68
Long before I was able to obtain sobriety in A.A., I knew without a doubt that alcohol was killing me, yet even with this knowledge, I was unable to stop drinking. So, when faced with Step One, I found it easy to admit that I lacked the power to not drink. But was my life unmanageable? Never! Five months after coming into A.A., I was drinking again and wondered why.
Later on, back in A.A. and smarting from my wounds, I learned that Step One is the only Step that can be taken 100%. And that the only way to take it 100% is to take 100% of the Step. That was many twenty-four hours ago and I haven't had to take Step One again
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Life being unmanageable hmmmm......now I see. I thought that if I stop using and drinking it was okay. Like the person in the reflection. I see that I did not want to claim the step completely. The unmanageable part. Seeing myself go around in circles I thought was okay. Stinking think strikes again. No wonder I had that using dream. It was just a wake up call. Letting know that my life was unmanageable and I need help. Help taking care of me. Wow, what a piece of insight this morning. I guess I am going to have to humble myself and ask for the help. Allowing people to help me through this. Thanks for the reminder.
