I logged on to bitch about God* having a sense of humor......and that I am not amused........You see, my 16 yr old has gotten himself kicked out of school and I refuse to let him quit, so after much praying and many phone calls I finally found a private one that I can SOMEWHAT afford.....We enrolled today.....I wrote a check for what we do not have and put it in God's hands...........After much going thru the checkbook and monthly bills and cutting corners to extreme I (sort of ) found a way........and guess what........my water heater BIT THE FRIGGIN DUST tonight.........All I know is we'll be taking cold showers for quite a while and doesnt my HP have a wonderful sense of humor.....my problem definately takes a back seat to losing another ..after reading Bob's post, my delima is trivial........I will not stress over this......I will see the big picture....Thanks Bob and I apologize for being so trivial...Love and peace be with us all......Jen
*of my understanding
-- Edited by Doll at 06:02, 2007-01-05
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Dear Jen, I would bitch at the Old Man too, and I do, but sometimes HE just has to put us through the tests (even if we don't think we merit it). We just get to cry/grin and bear it. May good fortune be yours ahead...Tim
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"We posess the eyes through which the universe gazes with wonder upon its own majesty."
I still get days when I want to bitch at just about everything. Then, I realise that everything happens for a reason. It's at moments like that I pray and thank God for my sobriety and for all of the other gifts that I now have and never would have had when I was still drinking.
Love and peace be with you, too, Jen.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Sometimes it is not easy to discern what God's * will is, we do our Step 11 and then the best we can. He doesn't guarantee to do our will in anything. Sometimes , when our plans get messed up,,, no, always,,,, it's because God has a better idea,,, though He doesn't always make clear what that is right away.
I 'm going to share some experiences that I've had this last year with you, and you can believe them or not. I had been very sick for a long time, ctscans and all said that there was inflammatory bowel disease of unknown origin. My follow up care was not good and I got sicker and sicker. Last Nov. 30 I lay in bed at home feeling the life ebb away from me and I was ready to die. I then felt an 'urge' to go to a different hospital ER. There were reasons which I won't go into right here. I went and they did another ctscan, which that radiologist said showed the 'possibility' that it was my appendix. Again, without details, it was removed and was indeed infected. What a relief that was! But my trials weren't over. Again, without details, I was at death's door for a few months, until June. Then I went to a couple of healing services. I was told that I would be healed and that God would be glorified. but I didn't feel healed. I went to ER's again. They didn't help again, and I saw horrors in the ER, and came out feeling sick.
I argued with God at that point. 'I fail to see how you are gloriified in this in any way!' 'Was that not a true word that I would be healed? as here I am still sick!' "If I'm going to remain this sick and helpless, please, take me."
I happened to tear a rotator cuff. An0ther comedy of errors, but then I did get into physical therapy. The therapist began to recognize my overall bad condition, and said there was not much that could be done. I said,, 'please work me as hard as you can, and I will be your best patient'. The healing began, and continued.
I am still recovering. As I look back from today, Jan 4. I can see that God* took His time, and did it His way. This year I am much healthier than I have been in years. I am ready, for this year.
I was 'told' , "I am sending you back to speak My Love to people". Here I am.
Doll, God loves you and your son very, very much,,,, no matter how things look right now.
in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
