Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky; The flying cloud, the frosty light; The year is dying in the night; Ring out, wild bells, and let him die. -- Alfred, Lord Tennyson
Past New Year's Eves may have meant times of excessive chemical use. We may have embarrassed ourselves in many ways. We may have chosen New Year's Eve as a time to analyze our past behaviors and write long lists of how that was gong to change.
Yet tonight is like any other night. We don't have to feel as though we aren't having a good time unless we're at a party or a bar. We can celebrate the New Year tomorrow with those closest to us by doing something we enjoy. The past is gone - the future has not arrived. The present is all we have, here and now.
Look to ourselves and what we want to do, not at what we think we should be doing. We can share our feelings at a meeting; spend quality time with our families and loved ones. We need to focus on ourselves and what we need to do for us, and not be diverted by the craziness around us.
Tonight is an ending; tonight is a beginning. Help me stay in the moment to bid farewell to the old and welcome in the new in my own way.
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Thanks Quetzal. You don't know how much your post means to me tonight. I live in rural area and there is not alot going on New Year's Eve anyway. My AHsober was here Christmas and told me he had other plans for New Year's (he walked out a year and a half ago). He said he was going to a bar with friends. Well, needless to say I was ready to dive head first into my pity party. Our two sons are home for the holidays from college. One brought a friend from school. So where is their dad? We are having the best time. It snowed and is just beautiful. I cooked a nice dinner. We have been sitting around watching football and talking. The kids are going to a friend's house later. I am truly blessed. I have my family and my recovery program in Alanon.
