It's just about midnight here and I'm feeling SO alive! Many of you here are aware of the problem I have had with the thoracic area of my spine from previous injuries which caused me to become "disabled" as far as my employability is concerned. This has been a major reason for my taking heavily to the bottle although an alcoholic such as myself will use any excuse. The drinking made it easier to tolerate the physical pain if I even noticed it at all. It also drowned the emotional pain. The feeling of worthlessnes that encompassed my being as I was no longer able to "bring home the bacon"...I was no longer a man. I still fight that from time to time. Today I went for a new form of treatment; radio frequency therapy I guess it's called. I've got 16 puncture wounds in that area of my back, according to the love of my life, and the trauma from the injections between the facet joints is aching a lot. It's all trauma to the flesh though. I feel NO bone-on-bone pain. For the first time in over a decade and a half, the bones of my spine are not aching. I feel ALIVE!! I'm ready to grab life by the chobes and squeeze. It will be another day and a half before this aching subsides and I know fully if the procedure worked. But knowing my body as I have come to I am ready to scream success! If this is so, my life will have changed so dramatically for the better in the last week that....that.... that I don't know!! It's like I've paid a lot of dues and am now finding out what the rewards of those long, heavy and painful payments is to be. O.K....Enough rambling. I just had to tell someone...friends. Now I'm going to snuggle up to the lady and get a good night's sleep........maybe? (LOL). Have a great day all!...Tim
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How wonderful that this new treatment may be resolution to the chronic pain, Tim! And a gentle reminder, dear one, that it takes much more to being a good man than "bringing home the bacon". Give me a modest man who is good to me over a man who mistreats me in any way, but brings home substantial income. Too many men have been taught over eons that masculinity = income = good mating material. Not.
And I love how you're loving life right now. Keep remembering that you deserve it in spades.
Now for the real question, Tim. What are chobes? Love, Chris
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I really do hope that your new treatment will work for you. I have lived with somebody who has needed spinal surgery and I have seen the daily battle to get rid of the constant pain. I so wish you success in this treatment, Tim. I really do.
Please let us know how it is going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Cor Blimey ! I could do with a bit of that! is it expensive? I pay for a CHIROPRACTOR every month to jump on my spine.
could do with a bit of relief. touch wood, i can still walk, unlike last year, work treated me like a criminal after I came back off the sick, ,they have a business to run i suppose.
Wow! That is awesome........I would certainly be interested in knowing more about this type of 'treatment' - I have three metal plates in my spine and although I am much better as a result of this, I still ACHE like crazy most days and have always thought I just had to 'suck it up' .........Jen
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It's kind of like when a noise stops, we notice something different. Let us know how it is today. I'd settle for progress, and not perfection. I ask God for the grace just to function, even if it is with some pain. My big relief was when I had my appendix out a year ago. I still had to go through a lot, because my body had gotten really generally out of shape. Now I am grateful for every step I take, and every single thing I am able to accomplish. I have a regimen of exercises that I try to be faithful to. It is, for me, really like a new lease on life, but I'm not just picking up where I left off. I consider the couple of years that I was so sick as time that was for learning, and now is a time for applying all that I learned during those years.
Balance. Pace yourself. Develop yourself.
love in recovery,
amanda
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Well hello again all. I haven't been able to sleep much at all due to the excitement over this. Thank you my friends for the well-wishes, and for those interested, here is a link which describes the procedure. Warning: It is not painless! The anesthesiologist was a bit p.o.'d at me because I declined her services. She warned me that it would hurt...and it did. http://www.ifess.org/INS_WSSFN_2005/INS/ABSTRACT/64.pdf
I will keep you posted on how this works over time. As stated in the link, this may need to be repeated, but as of now I am one happy, aching camper! I hope that you, Robert and Doll (and anyone else for that matter), can find a pain management physician in your area who can perform the procedure if it continues to prove this successful to me.
P.S. Chobes...Shielasdad may be familiar with that term, he being from the Boston area.. Kind of like the "Rocky Mountain Oysters"...Tim
-- Edited by timverton at 15:45, 2006-12-27
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