it's over with me and my husband... he won't forgive me for something I did... and honestly, I don't want to work it out anyway... I'm staying with a friend for about a month, then moving to Nebraska to stay with another friend and start a new life. got a job lined up there, something where I can test it out, see how I handle it, no expectations from me at first... looking into schools up there... just gotta stay in town to get some stuff straightened out, wait on my disability check in January... I'll be in Nebraska by the 28th of Jan because that's when my car insurance will be cut off so I need to be out there by then so I can get new insurance straightened out... I'll still check in here through all this and once I get out there. My friend is in AA and will help me find a meeting and a sponsor... I think this is the right thing to do.
Thanks y'all... I'm kinda scared of doing this... it seems so crazy... but it feels so right. My sponsor said she wouldn't try to change my mind, but she wanted me to have a backup plan if it doesn't work out, which I do. I'll be living on a farm... with chickens... lol it's kinda exciting actually :) The guy I that's taking me in understands we need to go into this as friends... that I don't want to rush into another relationship... and neither of us really knows what we want or feel right now. I'm not moving out there for a relationship, and he understands that, I'm moving out there because he's supportive and wants to see me do something with my life and is willing to help me do that. I don't have that kind of support here. Anyway... I'm scared, it's a big change, but it's exciting and it's what I want to do.
