okay, this thread is for everyone, to support each other in getting through Hannukah and Christmas, and New Years. We can put our vents, wisdom, situations, slogans, etc., e, s & h. If it gets very very long, we'll just continue on another one, k?
To start out, I'll share that I am grateful that I was able to get up this morning and come to this site to share with all of you. I'm grateful to all of you that we are a pretty positive bunch at the moment, which is what AA support is about. I'm sitting here thinking now about what I have to do next, and trying to think of reasons to procrastinate.
I'd better get going,
love in recovery,
amanda
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I, too, am grateful that I can grab my coffee in the morning and sit down and read this board. I have surges of times when I post, and then times when I just read for a few days. I'm so grateful I'm sober. Went through a few rough times this year, and drinking wasn't an option. I've made a few good friends here, and for that I'm grateful.
This is the first time I've really had a rough time with the holidays--no desire to drink, but I'm not feeling the joy, or spirit, this year. Just an emotional thing, sort of like I'm fighting a depression. But the good thing is, I know I'll come out the other side okay.
Good idea, Amanda. Express how we're dealing each day so it doesnt get buried under what we are "expected" to feel during the holidays.thx, Chris
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This Holiday will see me full of fear (that I'm trying to block out). Fear that the communion I have with my wife is soon to end. She is distant, and pretty much over me. Now that I 'm not drinking, my personality defects have no excuse. They are there, screaming to come out and do something foolish. Even when I'm not trying, I mess it all up.
Friends I share my issues with tell my wife and it all comes back on me with their and her twist on it. I had a one sided yell this morning at my neighbor, who offered up some information about our conversation to my wife!!!!!
I need to learn that now, my old friends are gone. My wife is gone, and all I have is me and my turmoil. I can't let anyone in for fear thet betray my confidence.
This year is tough. I have a January 19 date to lose it or move it. By then the wife will pull the trigger on our marriage. I hope God can show me the way and help keep my insecurities and fear out of my life.
Thanks Amanda, for starting this thread. It's a great idea.
This will be my second sober Christmas and I'm looking forward to it from that point of view. But, I don't feel remotely festive this year. Emotionally, I have a lot going on right now and it's draining me.
My Mum is ill and waiting for some test results to come back. My Dad's blood pressure is through the roof and worrying his GP. And, my boyfriend's mother has had a bad fall and she is in hospital with a broken neck.
I'll be spending Christmas Day on my own, but going to a meeting in the evening. The next day, I am doing telephone support for our great fellowship.
But, I am sober today and so grateful to AA and to all of the wonderful people I have met there. I have a wonderful meeting to go to this evening. So, it could all be so very much worse.
Take care everyone,
Carol
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This is indeed a grand idea Amanda. My overview seems to be saying that we are all facing some pretty tough circumstances in our lives right now. Our key to the door of making it through these times sane and sober is in each other here and at meetings, our dearest friends, and mostly in our own minds. Strength in numbers. Good fortune to all of us...Tim
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I am thankful that I'm getting up and going to work christmas day. Blah. Yall know, I realized something poking around google for a grinch picture. The grinch was never meant to be anything but the old cartoon drawing. Anything else just does not work. Some wierd looking crap. Merry frikin christmas.
.....thankful for that job that allows me 14 hours days and triple time pay this time of year......very thankful that will all come to an end on Saturday and things get back to normal for a while. whew!
Thankful for this board that has kept me sane (whatever that is) and from picking up when the craving started, when I was too stubborn or ashamed to pick up the phone....
Thankful this is the first Christmas in so very many that I am truely happy.
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Well, another day has passed. I'm sober, for now. It's Friday - the last working day before Christmas. Still got lots to do! Get to work on that craft project (I'm refinishing a statue for someone), shop for the food for the dinner Saturday evening, clean the house, special church services that I'm part of doing. *gulp* The thought of ducking out of it all by tieing one on occurs to me. The follow-up thought occurs to me that that is part of my pattern.
I think I have to be 'perfect' and do all the 'supposed to's, but I know I can't, so that means I'm a failure. Instead of failing by trying too hard at some useless expectation,,, why not just fail now and get it over with? Stinking thinking is that?
okay, well,,,, for this morning... I can eat that peanut butter and anchovy sandwich, get dressed, and see where I'm at by 10:30. Can I play some computer games?
good morning everybody,
amanda
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I am grateful to BE getting through - one day at a time.
This is a difficult holiday as we just lost my husband on Oct 30. I invited my parents down to share the entire shebang with the kids and I. I know that Dave will be with us, in spirit.
I am thankful for my sobriety, Church, kids, friends, and program. The tools I have used to get/stay sober are good to throw at grief, too.
I am glad to have this board to tune in to when the going gets rough - and on the good days, too.
Ugh! Here it is now.. 9:30 PM, Friday night. I did get some things done,,, but not all that I am 'supposed to'. I feel tired, but I won't have time tomorrow to do all of it. I was going to ask wht you guys think,,, should I press on? or just leave some things undone,,, and then I remembered, by myself... H.A.L.Tired. I think that means I should stop now. Before I drop.
Did you know there is a kind of high when we get to the point of knocking ourselves out? Just before we collapse?
amanda
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