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Gosh, I don't even know where to start.  My battle with alcohol is a long and horrific one.  I've been close to death more times than I probably know.  I was assaulted, I've gotten a DUI, I woken up in places and not known where I was or how I got there.  I've flirted with sobriety in the past and at my longest lasted a month. 


I went out partying last night, not even planning to get drunk.... one drink turned into two which quickly turned into more.  I woke up this morning in my bed, with no memories of last night past about 11:15.  My room stunk and I quickly realized my bed and floor was covered in vomit.  I realized my eye was throbbing when i got up and looked in the mirror it was scratched up and I had a black eye.  And half of my front tooth is now missing.  Upon futher inspection my side is all black and blue so it appears I may have hit the concrete.


I think I have hit my low point.  I don't want to wake up anymore not knowing what I did the night before, who I offended, how much of an ass I made of myself.... wishing I could just roll over and die.


Some days I just get frustrated with life.  I grew up in a house where there was never any alcohol..not even beer.  I just don't know where I went wrong.  Or how I can be a good person again.



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hi Laneysmom


just wanted to say welcome and to let you know ur not alone anymore, your in the right place and that there are a lot of great people here to help. 


Please keep coming back, and hope that your gonna stick with it.


We've all been through it and well you were always a good person, now is time to work and let that good person out


Welcome  your in my prayers


tina



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Hi LaneysMom,

Welcome to MIP. It really is a super place to be, with lots of friendly people and good advice. I pop here several times each day and read and post as much as I want/need.

As Tina has already said to you, you are not alone any more. I don't know if you have contacted your local AA, but I really would suggest trying it. I was so frightened of doing that, but when I finally did I discovered that there are some truly wonderful people in AA. I have made some very good friends and got the help that I so needed to get and stay sober for one day at a time. I needed the help to realise and accept that I wasn't a bad person, just someone with a dreadful illness.

My life now is truly different from how it was and I just wish that I had started going to AA meetings much sooner. Please try a few meetings if you can. I always find it so good to be around other recovering alcoholics.

Please keep coming back and posting and letting us know how it is going for you, won't you?

Take good care of yourself.

Carol

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Hi Laneysmom.


I'm Dan and I'm a alcoholic.  It's important to know that you can be an alcoholic and not drink.  I haven't had an alcoholic beverage in quite a very long time.  I won't say that it is not a struggle at times, but AA fellowship can help tremendously in the battle.


I don't know how much experience you have had with AA, or if you have ever visited the official AA website, but you can find a lot of helpful information there (such as addresses and times of meetings in your area, also an online version of "The Big Book")             http://www.aa.org/?Media=PlayFlash


Welcome to the Miracles In Progress message board.   Please come back and share as much or as little as you like.  You are not a bad person, just a good person with a bad disease, which can be battled against and defeated daily with the help of a support group.


 



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Or how I can be a good person again. we are not bad people, we are sick, and need help.aa is the solution for us, glad u r here. wagon

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Welcome to the board, and as others have said, you are not a bad person. Our disease is a bad disease. We may behave badly, but that doesn't define who we are. Sobering up helps us to find out who we really are, along with practicing the Steps. I know how difficult it is to not beat yourself up right now, it's almost instinctual to do that in the beginning. It was one of the reasons I used to stay drunk. I believed that "people like me" didn't deserve better. I was wrong. Be kind to yourself, give yourself credit for making the step towards changing your life. It can be a wonderful journey, if you just allow yourself to take it. Give yourself the chance to find out just how good you really are. We have most of us been exactly where you are at. I hope you come back often and share with us how your journey is going. You are the reason that we're here. Remember, be gentle with yourself, Chris

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Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program of recovery:








  1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable.


  2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.


  3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.


  4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.


  5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.


  6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.


  7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.


  8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.


  9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.


  10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.


  11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.


  12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.



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