I slipped. I started with a 1/4 glass of red wine someone told me I just had to try. Before you ask: no, that person didn't know I am an alcoholic. Anyway, as you might expect, it sure seemed harmless at the time, but I guess that's the way it works. It didn't kill me and neither did the full-on drink I had the next night. But it gradually ramped up and became a bottle of wine, then a bottle of wine with a 1/2 liter of...well, you get the picture. Anyway, I'm guilty and ashamed, but I've learned a lesson, again. So, it's back to every day meetings until the storm passes and I feel healthy again. I'm just posting to be truthful about myself and to ask for your encouragement.
ZB
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"You can't always write a chord ugly enough to say what you want to say, so sometimes you have to rely on a giraffe filled with whipped cream." Frank Zappa
Well, some people would say 'you did some research and found out that you are still an alcoholic and can't drink'. The experiment is over. Phil is right, today is a new day with a new beginning. Welcome back.
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
I'm sure that having a slip has happened to a lot of folk here. It has certainly happened to me. I took one small glass of wine one day, then the next day two glasses and so on. It took me eighteen long and horrendous months to get back to AA. But, I'm back and so are you.
I tried to gain strength from my slip and it helped me when I was next in a 'dangerous' situation. It is a new day and you are here. I'm sure that back to a daily meeting will help you get back on track. Please keep posting and letting us know how it goes for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
You are back and you have your senses about you; that's what counts. Keep working it, though it can get difficult from time to time and circumstance to circumstance, you have to keep in mind what you truly desire...Tim
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"We posess the eyes through which the universe gazes with wonder upon its own majesty."
Like everyone else has said, the important thing is that you made it back. Had a few slips that lasted a while myself, but the blessing is that we live through it if we're lucky, and learn from it, and start off fresh again. Be good to yourself, Chris
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"Never argue with an idiot... They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience..."
cindy wrote: ...remember that bit about cunning , baffleing and powerful? its true man!
Thanks for all the kind words, they really make me feel better.
What Cindy wrote here is just so right on for me. Whenever I come back from a binge like this last one, I feel like I was sleepwalking, like I can't believe or understand why I took that first measly glass of wine. I completely fooled myself. The funny thing is, I kept saying to myself: this is alcoholism, what you're doing right now; this is it, baby. Crazy, crazy stuff. Truly.
Thanks Again,
ZB
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"You can't always write a chord ugly enough to say what you want to say, so sometimes you have to rely on a giraffe filled with whipped cream." Frank Zappa
