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wantneeda


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round up was awesome!!!
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heard lots of stuff i liked, brought lots of it home with me... 
bought 2 books...one called coming to believe...its on step 2
a pocket size Big Book for my purse
then today i met an old fellow that came all the way from Kenora, Ontario for the roundup,  He wanted to buy me a book, the 12 by 12...12 steps and 12 traditions...and in keeping with my pocket size theme...they didn't have any small ones for sale so he gave me his own copy...isn't that nice!:)
Now i just have to...ya know...READ THEM>>>>...


Phil...


i've been posting more on the NA message board...today i'm working on day 9


not sure if i've been back here since my last slip...went for a 'job interview'...acouple of weeks ago...was gone for a week...little step 5 here...there was no job interview...a week before that i went out and got drunk....alcohol is a trigger for me to go find drugs...ended up at some house party...where this girl figured i was hitting on her boyfriend...not...but it is a reaction that i'm used to...one of the reasons why i don't care for women...and they don't care for me...anyways...she jumped me as i was leaving...i'd only been there for maybe 15 minutes..


so i've been nursing a chest injury ever since. I finally went to emergency to get an x-ray.. a week after the fact i was in more pain than ever. Figured something was cracked or maybe fractured. Not. Just bruised...actually really starting to get on my nerves. Healing process is looong...kind of like recovery....we don't heal overnight.


i came home from breakfast, alanon speaker and AA speaker...roundup was officially over around noon today. Clicked on my msn and my niece pops up and asks what my business was on msn....woah...this was my second conversation with her in the last few weeks. Prior to that i guess i haven't talked to my sister, my mom or my 3 nieces since last thanks giving...


i have since had a drink. Guess i'll have a new sobriety date. The fellow that gave me the gift of the 12 by 12 agrees that i can have 2 dates...one for NA and one for AA. I must attend both  as NA meetings in my town are only 2ce a week. I can't bear that so i rely on AA the rest of the time. I know some disagree with this. Guess that is their problem.Gotta do what works for me.


Even though i know that alcohol is a trigger for drugging i've still picked up a drink...that dang insanity!!


i hope and pray that some day i'll 'get it'.


thanks for listening and letting me share


peace and luv, Wendy



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for some reason i can't copy and paste our convo...



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oops...figured it out..but got it 2ce...


i gotta say here that it is my niece that seeks out my convo when she sees me signing in, i have not sought her out first.Justification??


and i'm definitely not on step 8 today.


in my HP's time not mine, but not talking to them is on my mind alot.


i was sharing a little today at the roundup...i almost cried. Its been bothering me that i haven't shed any tears. Notice i said almost...


i actually came back from the dance last night...which by the way i couldn't do because of my bruised chest(sternum), but probably wouldn't have anyway...lol...haven't attempted sober dancing yet...


...cranky!!! Just before i fell asleep, it hit me why i was cranky. I saw a woman at the dance that i know from active addiction...used with her not too long ago...anyway i said hi to her and she simply gave me a dirty look, chose not to say hi and just looked away. I THINK i'm over it but i brought it home with me. It bothered me. Under my breath i said principles before personalities.


hmmmm


thats all i got 4 now


big hugs to you's



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Youve been having quite a trip gal.. (smiling)


We learn lessons by stumbling...but most of us are stubborn enough..to pick ourselves up..and stumble onward...You are no different..


For some us...we give  up and die...


You are not, a "giver upper"...and thats the biggy...


Its what we think, that counts...


Even tho, we do care about what others think...we cant control that..Its none of our business what they think...I used to always worry about what others thought...Today I have a phrase for that...And I cant repeat it on here..:)


All we can do is the best we can do...and some days..we fall flat on our ass...and thats ok too..


We dont judge you..because we have no right too..Weve all been there...


You are a part of...


And whether it be NA or AA...Youre trying....and you WILL MAKE IT....


No doubt in this kids mind....YOU WILL MAKE IT....


Truck on gal...nones perfect...


With love....



-- Edited by Phil at 20:45, 2006-11-19

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yikes! u remind me so much of myself when i was a young pretty gal and new in the program. (now im a old pretty gal) just here to tell u it gets better and so far so good girl! hang in there! love cindy

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