A number of days ago..I was asked to share on the Alanon board....and try to share some positive stuff..
Im not only an alcoholic....but a member of Alanon as well....
I've come to the point where....I can't do it, anymore...I'm Powerless
All I see is anger, resentment, reacting, and hurt....and its sad shit...it really is....
Alanon Conference approved literature is not shared there....so how can anyone get better???
I'm not in the judging business....but some days...reading some of those posts...can send this kid right into a pit....and I sure as hell dont like being there....
I have compassion for these families, and people....I really do....and I also know that giving what we can to others..is what its all about...
But there comes a time where, one hasta draw a boundary somewhere....and get back to number one...
I cant handle all the negative shit....I was in it for too long....
Its the old saying.."You hang around a chicken, long enough....youre going to start to grow feathers and start cluckin"
"Let Go And Let God!!" Truck on!!!!
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"LOVE" devoid of self-gratification, is in essence, the will, to the greatest good...of another.
i won't slag alanon cause i know it's a good program, i too qualify for it. been to meetings and have friends in it, i have seen how tough it is for them to let go and let god. i think its easier for us cause the booze beats us into the ground with no place to go but up. i am always grateful to be on this side of it. we do make them so sick, i mean we make sense, we're drunks, they appear to be normal yet try to deal with insanity and how crazy is that? that stick with the winners thing applies to both programs, and if you want what we have. i want happyness, to be productive and be a dependable friend. i hang with the people who project this kind of stuff. its too easy to go down, and i love my recovery too much to risk it. i 12 step with my friends and together we have fun. thats it.
I am an alcoholic & I also belong to Al-Anon. I used to post a lot over there - got me thru some tough times, but I haven't been posting recently. not sure why.....
