One year ago today, I had just gone back to my first AA meeting after an eighteen month relapse. I cannot believe just how much better and completely different my life is today.
My crazy thoughts that I could control my alcoholism on my own have well and truly gone; I have fully accepted that I am an alcoholic and I'm working the steps with the help of my wonderful sponsor; I can look my friends and neighbours right in the face knowing exactly what I did and said last night; I no longer loose periods of time due to being in blackout; I am getting back some of my self-respect and the trust of others. My personal gratitude list is endless.
How dreadful to think back to all of the hurtful things that I said and did to other people. But, I am working on everything that I have done and trying to make amends as much as I possibly can. I am working on becoming a better and more thoughtful person for everyone who has contact with me.
I am so grateful to AA and to everyone that I have met through our wonderful fellowship. I am so grateful for the fact that I was sober yesterday and I am going to be sober today.
Suddenly, I have so much to live for and life is wonderful. I never thought that life could change so much for this alcoholic!
Have a great and sober weekend everybody.
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Oh, a big congratulations, Carol. Thank you so much for always sharing your ES and H with us, and letting us all be a part of this. It truly is a miracle, isn't it? That we all find eachother and support eachother as we string those twenty four hours together. Many blessings, Wren
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"Never argue with an idiot... They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience..."
So much growth, and love, that you show here, just want you to know how much I admire all that you do, and there is an old saying, "Attitude is EVERYTHING" and you sure have that one down!!!!!!
