I'm brand new to this forum and am a member of AA.
My meetings are getting fewer and further between. I can tell you I have really thought about picking up that first drink of late. I'm hanging on by my fingernails.
Perhaps God bought me to this site.
With Love,
Jenni
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Welcome to MIP, Jenni from Australia! I'm Chris from Washington State.
This is a wonderful site, and we have some very good, strong AAers and friends here to listen and give feedback. Not sure if it's replacement for meetings so much as support in-between meetings, but it's a good step if somebody can't make enough meetings, so hope you'll stick around.
We've all gone thru stuff where "nail hanging" is a good way to describe it, but with the people in the program, our Higher Power as we understand him/her/it, and sponsors and steps, we can get thru it, twenty-four at a time, eh?
Hope you'll post more so that we can get to know you better, and you can read the rest of the board and get a 'feel' for the others here. Keep coming back, Chris (wren)
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I'm feeling very lonely at the moment. My husband is in the fellowship too and he's not doing so well (but that's his story). He has other addictions and they're out of control at the moment.
You wouldn't believe it but I was in the Naranon forum I also belong to a little while ago and there was a link posted on their (for Claude Steiner's website). I went on their and he's talking about alcoholism not being an illness and stating that it is cureable. It was just what my stinking thinking wanted!!
Jenni
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I'm trying to figure out the time difference between here and there--if it's ten thirty p. here, is it about six thirty a.m. there? Do you have friends in the program, or even just friends that are supportive of you? To talk to? I know, that feeling of being all alone. I live way out in the woods, and I'm blessed with a friend here that's in AA, but we're the only two women in the program in this area, so I find myself bonding with people here to pick up the empty hours. Well, that's not the only reason, LOL. There are some folks here I just love, and talking to them on the phone, or online, helps me stay balanced and supported. I get a bit wacky talking to myself out here.....Hubby's not an A, so he sorta watches me and then drifts off shaking his head. Anyway, yeah feeling lonely, needing to reach out and just know someone out there gives a damn. Do you have a sponsor?
I think I'd stay away from that site myself. Never been on it, but cured? I thought so once. went back out for another year, and finished off the damage I hadn't incurred the first time out. Bad news, eh?
But we do get thru it, the loneliness. Just knowing someone else is hurting too, reaching out to help, make new friends, maybe say the right thing to the right person at just the right time. That's what it's all about. Reaching out, accepting, being there for someone without all the judgemental junk. Boy, I'm rambling now.......keep posting, others will be on in the morning to say hi and welcome. Wren/Chris
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"Never argue with an idiot... They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience..."
I have some really good friends which is good. I'm in a few fellowships myself AA, Alanon and Naranon though hubby is an alcohlic too and hasn't had a drink for just over 8 years (thank God for that - that'd be all I need).
I had a great call from a very good friend from Canada today. I do have lots of support which is great.
No, don't have a sponsor. I've really let my AA slide. No wonder I feel like a drink.
Jenni
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I'm Carol, a recovering alcoholic in UK. It's good to 'meet' you. I love this board and try to pop in every day and read and post as much as I want. It all adds to the quality of my sobriety.
I do hope that your 'nail hanging' days are coming to an end for you. I know that for me, I couldn't manage without going to my regular face-to-face meetings and working the steps with the help of my sponsor.
Keep coming back and sharing with us and letting us know how you are doing.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I had a drinking dream last night. JUST what I needed. It really did the trick. I kid myself that I'm going to have a nice glass of wine. That glass of wine ALWAYS ended up with me falling over, disgusted at myself. In the dream I had a glass of very expensive red wine. One sip and I HATED it. So I woke up this morning and thanked God and did my 1st 3 steps. Something I haven't done in a long time when rising.
Phil, I'm determined to meet my Canadian friend. I've been reading up on Canada.
I thank God I found you all too.
God Bless you all,
Jenni
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