Yes even Batman has problems! Yes I joke because that is how I deal with my problems. Except, as I am sure you all are aware of, this is no joke. Drinking 35 beers a night just isn't funny is it? For the last 18 years I have ignored all the signs. I have been to alot of recovery programs and AA, and have even done most of the steps. ALL, for other people. Then I realized I am still at step 1!!!! It's alot harder than..."Hi I am Mike and I am an alcoholic." I am 36 and I have a hard time talking to people even when they have the same problem as I do. I hope you all will share your stories of recovery with me and I do hope I will recieve some good advice as well. Thank you for taking the time to read this humbing post.
It is my anniversary (Wedding) today, so my wife of 14 years and I will be going out to dinner and a movie but i will be back on in a few hours. I look forward to hearing from you all.
No I'm not Robin. My early AA life, I thought no one had ever done or had the experiences I had. But over time I realized that others had stories that were comparable. I wasn't the only one! I found people that listened and understood and most importantly - they listened! But the key was I had to speak up about how I felt - how my life was out of control.
The first step says "admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives were out of control." I could still drink, I thought I had power - but my life? That was a disaster. Through AA, over time and many tears, I shared with them my worst stuff. And you know what? They laughed at me. Years later I began laughing at a newcomers story. Not making fun of the person, but how insane our lives had become.
35 beers a day? HONESTLY, I can relate, plus 10-12 shots of whiskey every night, for close to 20 years. I make that point to show that whether it is here or at a meeting, there is very little that you will say that will shock people. But it begins with you openning up and speaking from the soul. It can be extremely painful, but it is well worth it.
Hey Batman...:) Almost feel as if I know you aready....Im Phil...and most days Im a Little Batty...but have been in AA for a few days...and would rather be a "Little Batty" than "Right out to lunch"
And I identify with the joking on the outside..while hiding the pain on the inside...used to do it..the emphasis on "Used To"....hmmmm.....well that isnt entirely true...but close enough..
Was 37 when I surrendered....a touch older than that now....some days.:)
37 beers a night eh??? Man!! You were thirsty...been there...plus Daves whiskey too..
Welcome to MIP....and hope you and your wife had a great evening..
-- Edited by Phil at 09:17, 2006-10-10
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Hi Batman and a big WELCOME to M.I.P. I'm Tim and I'm an alcoholic (but you knew that!). I'm only a couple of months sober now for about the dozenth time in the last decade I hadn't realized it till just now, but today, the ninth, IS my 2 months. At this stage I read a lot more here than I post and check in as many times as possible during the day. You'll find there's a lot of good, long term sober alkies here along with a good mix of newbies like me. It's friendly, informative, and always VERY inspiring here; a great place to come before, after, and between meetings. Look forward to seeing more of you...Tim
P.S. Hope you and the little lady had a wonderful day!
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And just wanted to say Welcome, this is an awesome Recovery Forum, just happen to find it by chance a little less that a year ago, and today find that I have been here almost everyday since.
My name is Toni, and I am an Alcoholic, everyone here is just so great, and am looking forward to getting to know you. Hope your dinner was wonderful, and Congratulations on those 14 years.
I'm Carol and I'm an alcoholic. And ... welcome to MIP. I find it a really helpful and useful tool for my recovery. I pop by here several times each day and read and post as much as I can. It's not the same as face to face meetings, but it really helps and everyone here is just great.
I could so identify with you saying that you had been doing it all for other people. Looking back at my first time in AA I wasn't doing it for myself. But, this time I am and it's going well. I'm working the steps and my life is so much better than it was one year ago. For me, it took a lot of courage to start speaking up at meetings as I'm naturally fairly quiet. But, it really does get easier.
I hope that you had a wonderful wedding anniversary and that your dinner and the movie was great.
Please keep posting and letting us know how it is going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Hi bat, I'm 36 myself and reading your post, I see you're a lot like me. I have a real problem opening up, even at meetings where I know we are all there for the same thing. I dunno why, I can't even get up the guts to ask for a sponser. Anyway just wanted to say hi and let you know the people here are outstanding. I find it's easier for me to be real here and talk about my problems and I've gotten some great advice.