I've gotten numbers before when I was a newcomer, but i feel foolish calling them now after it's been so long.
I know i could if i needed to. Seems like I don't need to except to find a sponsor.
Anyway, she approached me after my local meeting. Very sweet woman with many years in the program. She was chairing the meeting. She approached me after the meeting and asked if i needed numbers. Right away without hesitation, i said yes.
I put her number in my cell & will try to work up the nerve to call her this weekend.
Funny, tonight's meeting was about the fourth step. I really want to get working on it all. Scared but excited also.
Hey Phil,
I FINALLY spoke up. They were going around the room taking turns. I couldn't pass. I just said it out loud & proud. I was practicing on the way in my truck. "CHRISTINE, ALCOHOLIC." I figured if I said it loud that I would mess it up. It worked!
I was amazed how relaxed I was. My heart was pounding just before when I knew my turn was coming up. I just took a breath and said that I was about 9 days into sobriety. This time. That I was hoping, HP willing, it will be my last. I also said I was still working on the first step all over again. One of the woman nodded with me. It really is amazing. These people all have been in my shoes before. It was very reassuring for me.
Boy, am I grateful for another sober day - still no job, no income - savings is dwindling down.
But..........
Hey, I'm alive!
Just came back from an evening bike ride & breathed in the sweet country air & watched the sunset.
Wow, what a wonderful share, thank you. So so happy that you have found that meeting, and that you participated. And it so wonderful when we see that every little single fear that we have, well can be shared even with a nod, of yep, been there done that.
Praying for you, that the "other" stuff will fall into place, like a halt to your savings dwindling.
But the "Big Deal" is going on, the connection that you are making. Today is 10 days, and that is huge! Have watched you struggling with finding a meeting, and still stuggling with finding a sponsor. Feel it's coming, and wishing you all the great stuff that happens when we begin, just exactly like you are doing, so a giant Congratulations to you.
Also wanted to tell you how good it feels that you are now here with us so often, a real part of this Forum.
