it has been ingrained in me since birth that I am no good. I have only recently found out this is not correct. Kick a dog often enough and it will believe it is bad.
feel a sense of achievement that I have dropped the dose on the medication, want to come off them altogether soon and gain control of my life in as much as no longer want to be a sack of cotton wall...
anyway better go., I really need help to push me to come back here and be part of again, my head = your no good, no one wants to hear from you.
From birth, I was often made to feel in the way or not quite good enough. That has left me with a lot of problems that I am now facing. So, I could really associate with what you were sharing.
Well done on dropping the dose of your medication. That is super news and you must be feeling good about that.
Robert, it's always great to read your posts. On this wonderful forum I feel that I am with true friends and with true friends they are always glad to see me back.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you? So many people care about you here. They really do.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
All I can say to you dear, is you are Part of us, you have been for a while now, and nothing has changed.
Sometimes I get into that feeling of People don't want to read or hear from me, just some old a.. h....BS from my Past, I came from a Past very similiar to yours where it was ingrained in me that I was useless, and worthless, and certainly do not feel that way about myself today, after many years of good Therapy, I did learn that I was up to Par with any other human being walking on the face of this earth.
But there are those moments, who knows something might trigger some old worn out and long gone memory from the past, that will see an "in" and just try to come for a visit, just like say a person that already knows that you don't ever want to see them again, and there they are at your doorstep. Well just like I would say to that unwelcome visitor, , Thanks for stopping by, but don't have any time for you. I do that with those friggen memories too, with "Thanks for sharing and now would you please leave." And guess what, they are gone. Just a litte thought, try it sometime, it sure works for me. If you are alone, you can even say it out loud.
So my friend you are here and where you belong, don't let those insecurities have an inch or they will demand a friggin mile.
Welcome home.
Toodle, your sister in Recovery, Robert, seems to me I don't recall you ever really leaving the Boat, I must have missed that.
Hugs, and when you have the time, tell us about the University, well that's if you want to.
