I decided I'm going back to school!!! I only went for less than a year, the year after I graduated high school, flunked out both semesters because my anxiety was so bad I'd hardly ever go to class. Well I think I'm ready for it now, my anxiety's getting a lot better, and they have so many classes online now that I could do, which I probably will do for the first semester to get adjusted to the whole school thing again. So... it all depends on what grants I get. I told my sponsor tonight that I'd decided what I want to do with my life and now it's a matter of getting the money for school. She was like You know there are government grants for disabled people don't you? I had no idea! She said they'd pay for all my schooling, or at least most of it!

So I applied for FAFSA tonight, sending in the signature page this week. You have to apply for that to get any grants at all, but I know I won't get anything from FAFSA, I've tried before. I started searching online for grants and so far haven't come up with anything, but my sponsor said she'd help me with it. She said her therapist suggested it for her, but you can't work while you're in school if you get those grants, and she wanted to work.

So... what I want to be when I grow up... I want to be a guidance counselor at a high school. After all I've been through and what all I've done throughout my teenage years, I really feel like I have a lot to offer, and as my sponsor put it, a lot of experience and insight. Eventually I'll go back for my masters to be a psychologist for adolescents. Honestly, being a psychologist, that's more for the money I think... because we need money. I'd be happy stopping at being a guidance counselor... but I think I'd like being a psychologist too actually. But doing the guidance counseling first, that gives me some experience, and a chance to see how I like working with kids, before I do that extra schooling.

I'm sooo happy about finding out I can go to college, that I can get grants. I think most grants go fall-spring so I probably won't be able to get in in the spring, I'll probably have to wait until next fall.