What used to seem so difficult now seems so simple. Staying focused in the day and enjoying life is so important to this alchy. This staying sober stuff rocks!!! Developing new friendships with sober people is a wonderful thing. When I go to meetings now I really look forwards to seeing new friends. Hanging out getting to know each other, gaining insight on steps I'm working, shooting pool, watching t.v., all with sober people is so much fun for me!
I haven't been sober that long but the way I view things, the way I view myself, is just incredible compared to the way I used to live! I feel like I have nothing to be ashamed of, no ghosts in the closet lurking, no hidden reservations. What I do have is a newfound confidence, a belief in myself knowing that if I continue to stay sober and work the steps and practice these principles in every day life, that my life and even my families life will continue to grow and prosper!
What do I owe this to? Going to meetings, finding a higher power whom I believe in, getting a sponsor, working the steps with my sponsor, and.........did I mention God? lol. There is no me in this equation. Only by taking myself out of the picture, meaning not trying to be my own higher power, can I have a good life. It's all about doing the next right thing. In the beginning that was just doing the opposite of what I wanted to do! LOL.
I finally got a cell phone. Had to do that in my brothers name due to my horrible credit! I'm still having trouble believing he said okay! Does that mean he's starting to trust me? Hmmmmm. Nahhhh. Who knows? lol. Oh yeah, the cell phone. The whole reason I wanted it is so that I can actually use it! Imagine that! Using a phone..........calling other people in the program......I guess that's progress for this sober drunk! Anyways, I figured if I'm paying for a phone the desire to use it will be stronger now. That darn phone get's really heavy at times. Whether things are good or bad the phone is still a struggle. It's getting better though.
Well, Justin, thank you for this "blab" as you called it. I love hearing/reading how things are progressing with you, it makes me feel all new (instead of OLD, Phil), helps me to remember and recapture the things I tend to take for granted far too often. Love your shares, truly. Chris
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Thank you so much for a lovely share. It's great to hear how things are going for you.
I really needed to hear something upbeat today after struggling all day with computer problems. I logged on and hit this forum as soon as I could. Your post really reminded me how great my sobriety feels. Thank you for that.
Things are feeling better already!
Have a great day,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
