I heard someone say they were a grateful alcoholic tonight. A grateful alcoholic? I've heard people say they are grateful recovering alcoholics before. I can kind of accept that, but a grateful alcoholic? F**K THAT!
I could never be grateful for the pain and hurt I've inflicted upon people, especially those close to me that I love, due to my alcoholism. Don't get me wrong, I love my life now. Everything is new and interesting. I owe everything I have in my life now to Alcoholics Anonymous and my relationship with my HP aka The Big Guy In The Sky!
I do love gratitude meetings. It's like a huge reality check everytime. No matter how good or how bad I'm feeling I gain a perspective on things when we talk about gratitude in meetings. All it takes for me is a look back to the way I used to live my life when alcohol and drugs controlled my every move. The way it was, what happened, and what it's like now brings instant gratitude! That's it, that's all!
Darn phone, gotta go for now. I'm like a bad recurring cancer. I'll be back! Haha!
I too have wondered about this. But I have come to realize that I have already been through the worst possible 15 years I could ever have... and everything else is cake compared to that old life. So I am grateful that i am an alcoholic. I feel more, see more, think way too much, love a whole lot, and have an opportunity to help God save countless lives. Yes, I am very very rgateful I am an alcoholic, or I would NEVER have the peace I have today, through this wonderful solution. I am also glad I have alcoholism, and am not a pedophile or a serial killer or something like that. On those terms, I HAVE to be grateful that I have a disease with a very simple solution.
Man! Justin, could I identify with that! A woman at my HG introduces herself as "I'm Mike, and God blessed me with the disease of alcoholism"........Used to piss me off when some would say "grateful recovering", etc....I certianly didn't aspire to be an alkie and one day to AA.......then I had a light bulb moment....... I could have easily been my MOTHER, who has soooooo many "Isms" and "icks" OTHER than alcohol or drugs that she has NEVER had a happy day in her 70 yrs of being on this earth...........Unfortunately there is no program for her! Fortunately there is one for me ME! ......... I truly believe today that nothing happens in God's world by mistake. I am an alcoholic because that was His plan. I'm now in AA because that is His plan..........for me.............Hang in there my friend, as the BB says, More shall be revealed
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