Today is September 11, 2006 A Great Day for Recovery!
THOUGHT
"To be able to be caught up in a world of thought -- that is being educated." -- Edith Hamilton
For years I didn't think I reacted. Things happened and I felt I had to respond -- but rarely was it a considered response. I had no program for my life. I was like a boat without a sail.
Today I think before I speak. I talk things over with a sponsor or friends before I make an important decision. I listen to the opinions of others before I make a choice. Today I am caught up in a world of thought and it isn't simply my own. God knows my best thinking nearly killed me!
The world only makes sense because people share. It is the giving and receiving that makes life worthwhile. To be an island unto myself is isolation. I know what it was to be lonely. Today I desire a relationship of mind, body and feelings.
Let me find You in my neighbor and be sustained by the stranger. ~~~~~~~~
MAKING AMENDS
Above all, we should try to be absolutely sure that we are not delaying because we are afraid. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 87
To have courage, to be unafraid, are gifts of my recovery. They empower me to ask for help and to go forth in making my amends with a sense of dignity and humility. Making amends may require a certain amount of honesty that I feel I lack, yet with the help of God and the wisdom of others, I can reach within and find the strength to act. My amends may be accepted, or they may not, but after they are completed I can walk with a sense of freedom and know that, for today, I am responsible.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I don't know how I ever thought I could manage living without the fellowship of others, and their perspectives on situations. What a twisted place that was, like a house of mirrors. Everything looked all wrong to me.
I am so happy to have a support group now, to be my radar, my eyes and ears. To help me look outside the box when the box starts closing in.