"There is nothing more certain in our lives than change. Yet many of us fear change and make elaborate plans to avoid it. We fear the new and find comfort and stability in the known and familiar.
But to grow, you need not only to accept change, but to embrace it, jopyfully. Think of a flowing stream as representing your life. In some places, it flows smoothly, with barely a ripple as it travels on its journey. At other places along the way, obstacles create great turbulence; the water roars and thunders as it crashes through gorges and down steep falls. These represent both the easy and difficult times you experience.
Yet, a stream may have a place where the water becomes banked up, stagnant, unhealthy. Here, nothing thrives and nothing changes.
Welcome the rushing waters of change into your life, for change means growth, spiritual health and self-realization. Embrace each new direction you encounter with courage and enthusiam. It is the key to a better life."
This post happens to be very relevant to me today. I moved into a new office at work today and I'm away from what I'm used to. But it's good because the move was due to a promotion.
My best friend at work was also promoted recently and moved today as well. We used to be only 2 cubes away from each other but now we are a floor away from each other. Now she is stuck on the same floor as my exabf - ha!! She'll probably kick his butt!
Anyway, change is good but it can take some time to get used to.
I enjoyed thinking about this, on the subject of change. Not being open to change, would be similiar to my wanted to hold back the hands of a clock, always moving, always changing.
Maybe my perceptions are a little different that some. I grew up, moving almost every year of my life, to a new place, a new envirornment. Even in Recovery, because this was my M.O. while growing up, I can feel a desire for a big change every Fall. But of course, I do not do that. I make a bargain with that built in wonderlust. O.K. I can move, every year, with that change being of an "Inside Change". It works well, with the need for growth, that has to keep going, throughout my Recovery.
Speaking of Change....Tick Tock, looked at the Clock, and can see that I have this big need at the moment for a change.......into shower, and doing my day. Changes are constant, little and big ones.
Your right. The 'outside' changes seem to be so much easier! Because then we don't have to challenge our beliefs, values, or self-structures.
I am also taking classes online to finish up my bachelors degree. I would think of this as an 'inside' change. I am learning new things and applying my knowledge. But, I am not really challenging myself as to "why I do the things I do". I don't have to dig deep when learning things in these classes, as I now need to dig deep within myself for this recovery process.
I cannot believe how difficult this week has been. I feel like I am in a daze walking though a dream. I think that is because I finally see what drinking has done to me (and how my drinking affects others that I hold dear to me).
How strange that the hardest change I have ever had to deal with will be to NOT do something!
