I have an AA Birthday coming up in 18 day, and have really been scratching me head with this, never in a Million years, did I think this would happen to me.
So Very Grateful, cannot even put words to the feeling of Humble Gratitude.
But there have been a few Birthdays in the past, where the month before, I feel real "Off track" Do not understand this, and wanted to know if anyone has ever felt this feeling of being off track in the month before the Birthday date.
Have had to miss two meetings this weeks, dental stuff that was over-whelming and took two entire days out of the week, I am still with a Big fat Cheek on one side, and because this looks so Bizarre, have decided to try and go to the Sunday meeting at noon, which I really like, so maybe with some luck and a lot of ice, will be there tomorrow. Think I answered my own question, maybe, have not been to a meeting in 5 days. Usually try to make at least 3 a week, so my schedule, that I NEED, has not been there, have had a lot of telephone contact with People in the Program, but NOTHING replaces the "Putting Butt in Chair".
So has anyone ever experienced this strange feeling in the weeks before a Birthday.
I clearly recall sitting there in my first year, and the idea of, that I would ever have 4 years, that was my goal way back when, when it happened, wanted someone to pinch me to make sure it was me sitting there. And then by only the Grace of God, and this Program, the years keep adding up. Think I need to have someone Pinch me again, cannot Believe that this happened, one 24 hours at a time. Vacilite between a sense of Sheer Joy, and then Fear pops in for a visit. Personally, don't care for the combination, but it is, What It Is.
Have a Great Saturday, you all, have to go make that Fruit Salad, from another Post.
Have had the same feelings for the last month - I guess that is because my one year birthday is officially tomorrow (Sunday). Having celebration tonight along with a 25 year and a 30 year birthday. Fear, anticipation, scared, joy and just plain do not know what to do next. Just my share at this moment in time.
Later - Jeannie
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Congratulations Toni!!! Four years!! That is a GREAT accomplishment. I'd say you should be proud, but that's one of the vices. So just be very thankful and happy and know that I and others are so very happy for you. As far as the odd feeling? Are you afraid of success?? That does happen to some. So don't be nervous, just take it in stride. Another twenty-four hours at a time.
BIG SUCCESS HUGS TO YOU!...Tim
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OH!! Forgot to include a big CONGRATULATIONS! to Jeannie. Another fine accomplishment in the same post! I hope you have a great birthday celebration and that you have many, many more in the future!...Tim
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Just want to say that that 4th Birthday was almost 13 years ago, so with God on my side and in my heart, I am coming up on 17 years. That is what makes it so hard to fathom when for so many years, that i do not ever want to forget, the thought of even 4 months was over-whelming.
Just feel like getting out my recordings of "Amazing Grace" that is how simple it is.
And JEANNIE, one year, and what an accomplishment, went through some rough times and did not drink. the Program of AA in Action.
