No self-pity intended in this post, but I am AMAZED at the past few weeks; the sheer intensity of it all. Sobriety has been pretty uneventful (Thank God) up until lately. Now I get to practice the principles... and it is sink or swim.
My non-A husband got stinking drunk and stayed out all night 2 weekends ago for the first time ever in our marriage.
Then we were physically 'accosted' by the ex and her drunk mother in front of the kids.
Tonight, my husband ran over his own hand at work. (Yes, this is possible... he was putting a car to tow up on the flatbed and it slipped, and crushed his hand.)
The amazing thing is.... I did not drink!!!!
Remarkable. What a blessing. And this primary blessing is making way for other blessings. Because I was sober and reaching out, I did not get drunk when my husband did, nor did I even feel the need to 'scold'. (Miracle.) I did not haul off and beat the crap out of the ex, in a drunken rage, and she actually called and apologized for the first time ever! (Miracle.) My basement keeps flooding, but by the grace of God, it is getting fixed Friday, because I no longer put stuff like that off. (Miracle.) My husband is going to work tomorrow, anyway, as he can work one-handed, if absolutely necessary (even though I would prefer he take time off.) And I am not scolding nor pressuring him to stay home, because I have learned how futile it is to try and 'make' people do anything. (Miracle.)
I am not trying to toot my own horn here. I am simply evaluating what GOD through the AA program, along with PEOPLE who help me every single day, are doing to me!! You are all changing me; something I could never ever do before without you. You people in AA gave me a choice, "Do the work, or get drunk." God gave me the Power. I don't even know who I am turning into, but I think I like her. She is a lot less of a 'pain in the ass' than the old me. An old sponsor once put up a post-it note on my mirror that said, "GROW UP OR DIE". LOLOL Thanks, AA, for the small miracles every single day. Thanks for sayings like, "This too shall pass", "Let Go and Let God", and "How Important Is It?"
AA is steady turning my mountains back into molehills.
I'm so sorry to read about your husband's accident. I do hope that he will soon be feeling fine again.
I do feel for you, Joni, as I know that you have had a lot on your mind recently. But, it's people like you who are such an inspiration to the new-comers. You've certainly been a great inspiration to me over the time that I have known you. I respect you enormously.
And, miracles do happen in AA of the time. I loved what you said about AA turning your mountains back into molehills. I'll have to remember that. Thank you.
Take care,
Q
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Reading your post I just kept saying yep, yep, and yep. This is how the program is supposed to be working in our lives! Taking the principles and practicing them in every day life!
Sorry to hear about your husbands hand.
This one guy at my work came into work Monday with a broken hand. It's not good to punch inanimate objects! At the insurance meeting I was joking around with him. He borrowed my pen to sign this paper and I kept telling him to hurry up while he was writing with his wrong hand! LOL!
There's usually some way to make a bad situation better!
At the insurance meeting I was joking around with him. He borrowed my pen to sign this paper and I kept telling him to hurry up while he was writing with his wrong hand! LOL!