Just needed to share some............Picked up my 30 day chip! Still sort of feel like a loser on shooting 10 months in the foot (or would that be the ass) but, nothing happens by mistake. And I actually am much happier now. That slip was meant to be. It openend my eyes wider than they have ever been.
I have made a new year's resolution "It's going to be a good day, today". I have lived my life running on emotion and it finally hit me, I don't have to do this anymore. It's up to me to make every day a good day. I can control that!
Went to a women's meeting yesterday. I don't normally do those, but needed to 'bitch & moan' a bit myself, and it was wonderful to just 'get it all out'.........I do what I must to stay sober one more day!
I'm a bit scared to go back to work on Monday. I've been out 3 months now and still in some pain, but the surgery has made it much better. This is just something I will have to learn to live with. And am hoping with time and prayer it will continue to ease up.
I'm trying to cut my sig. other off completely. If "I'm not the one" as he stated, then I have no desire to waste any more of my time. He wishes to continue to be friends, but that friendship will have to consist of just a phone call & emails here and there. Can't afford to see him right now. My sobriety comes first. I'm easing into it. He is a wonderful man and he has loved me when I was not able to love myself. Ah! "a reason, a season" poem comes to mind.
Keep me in your prayers, please.
Thanks for letting me share.
((((Hugs))))
Jen
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Yeah thanks for that reminder. And good for you for the decision. I woke today bitchy, in pain and crying. I felt as if no could understand the physical and emotional pain I feel somedays. But then I said "Self, you have a choice to make the best of this day or the worst of it"
I smiled and journaled and meditated. And though it is not perfect, I am acting kinder to others and to self. Thank you for sharing and finding strenth through your spirit. It is an awesome reminder for others that attitude is 90% on how we deal with life.
Prayers and blessings your way/ Jo
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I granted myself the gift of sobriety and found my spirit.
I remember when I got sober in '02 for the first time. I was living in a half-way house. There was this one lady that worked there and she made up this little inspirational book for me. I was really struggling back then. The book was filled with, I can't think of the word, but stuff to tell myself, when I woke up to help me through the day. Self-affirmations! It did help. I had to tell myself over and over that this was going to be a good day. After a while it did start to work for me.
I hope things continue to get better for you and congratulations on the 30 days!
There is nothing to feel bad about concerning the time you had before. I'm in the same boat, having relapsed, and things are wonderful today. It's not about the quantity of time you have it's the quality!!!! I know you've heard that a million times, but it's true.
It did help. I had to tell myself over and over that this was going to be a good day. After a while it did start to work for me.