This is the nether region. This is the shadowy place under the kitchen table where the cobwebs drape and no-one ever peers. This is the hidden voice. This is the silent scream. This is the place where the angels encounter a strange blankness they can’t explain nor decipher. This is the place of death covered by make-up & a painted smile.
Sorry to see that you are still in the Grip of this horrible Disease, I made a Post for you, How it Works, from Chapter 5, of the Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
All the answers to how to find your way out of that Grip, are written in this How it Works portion of this Book, that is why it is read EVERY single time, in a meeting.
My Prayers go out to you, Niall.
The only step that is required, that we need to Surrender to is the 1st Step.
