Well, today was one very depressing day. I broke down in tears throughout and when it came time to go to AA, I wept to my dad about how depressed I was and that I really didn't even want to go. He said that I needed to, because the times when you least want to face it are the times you need it most. I suppose he was right, because it turned out to be a good meeting, all in all.
Do you all make yourselves go even when you feel like laying around and crying?
And to answer your question, when I do not feel like I want to go, is exactly the same time, I need to go, even more that when I am in the mood to go. Have heard that shared by so many in meetings, such as "I didn't want to be here today, that's Why I am here.
So happy to see you here, and sounds like you have a real wise Father.
My alcoholic brain still tries to find convenient ways to keep me from taking care of myself and keeping my disease at bay... there is a saying,that "Alcoholics are the only people who have a disease that tells them they don't have one"...
So on a bad day, whatever my alcoholic brain says to do... (drink, isolate, etc...) I try to do the exact opposite. Works for me.
Bless you, and so glad you made it there and as you said, that it was a good meeting.
A lot of the time, I would rather stay home. I have Panic Disorder and have frequent anxiety attacks now that I'm sober. I would be much more comfortable and less panicky at home, but I drag myself to meetings anyway. Usually I end up feeling better afterward. AA meetings are like medicine. Or Chicken Soup for the Soul, ha ha!
Well done on going to a meeting and I'm glad that it was a good one. Quite often I just don't feel like going to one of my meetings, but that's when I know that I need that meeting the most. I went to a meeting last and it was really terrific. I needed to hear what was being said and I felt so much better afterwards. I regards going to my meetings at taking my medicine. If I want to stay sober, then I have to take my medicine. Anyway, I love my meetings now.
Take care,
Carol
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