Not that it's an amazing achievement or anything, I'm not really a daily drinker, my cycle is usually binge drinking two or three times a week, but I feel a whole lot better than yesterday. I apologized to my friend who I punched in the face the night before and it wasn't as big a deal as I had thought (luckily I cant punch very hard). I apologized to my girlfriend for coming home late and making an awful racket (I made nachos)...I feel a little like myself again.
Now if I can just remember how I feel the day after a binge I'm sure I would never do it again...but I always forget, I always think "Duh, this time it'll be different!" and it rarely is. Oh sure sometimes I hold it together and dont offend anyone or drive drunk or act like an idiot, but nine times out of ten I do all of those things and more.
What can I do to help myself remember? Do I have to tattoo it on my forehead "You will wish your dead in the morning if you drink tonight!"...because I'll do it if I have to. It might put a crimp in my career as a software salesman but I dont care!
Very sobering response, Phil.... how grateful am I, that today, I am Sober and NOT incarcerated!!???....... Thanks for the reminder.
...and Tip, if you haven't had a lot of consequences yet, TRYYYY to learn from the consequences others have had to face!! Don't ever say NEVER... there are a whole lot of YET'S out there for you...
YET means You're Eligible Too.....
And on the nacho thing..... I can recall how when drunk, I would drive (drunk) through Taco Bell (yuck) at 3am and eat like 15 bucks worth of Taco Hell before passing out... and that's a lotttt of Taco-Hell, $15 worth... Gawd, my poor stomach!!!!!
I too was a binge drinker. Meetings, meetings, meetings. I found that getting some AA in me before the cycle came back around helped to keep the booze out.
My last drunk, I wrote it down! All the misery and pain I felt. I now read it every morning. What a wonderful reminder of a life I have no desire to go back to.
"We shall not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it"
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Men and Woman drink essentially because they like the effect produce by Alcohol.
The sensation is so elusive that,while they admit it is injurious,they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false .
To them ,their alcoholic life seems the only normal one . They are restless ,irritable and discontented ,,unless they can again experience the sense and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks-drinks which they see others taking with impunity.
After they have succumbed to the desire again ,as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops,they pass through the well -known stages of a spree,emerging remorseful,with a firm resolution not to drink again
This is repeated over and over,and unless this person can experience an entire psychic change there is very little hope of his recovery.
The Doctors Opinion
That is my story and i am sticking to it ,,just noing that is not going to keep me sober i have to live this program ....everybody have a nice day..
If you have a Big Book, read More About Alcoholism. We read it last night at a meeting and I was so grateful because it really helped me to remember the insanity of this disease. Why I would swear off and be drunk by dinner time, why I couldn't stop even though I wanted to. It is the nature of the disease to make us forget the awful consequences that drinking will lead to.
