I'm sorry I shouldn't have posted that...it's not fair to dump things like that on strangers. I'll be okay, I'm just having a bad case of drinkers remorse. When I step back and look at the big picture smacking a friend in the face is by far not even remotely close to the worst thing I've done while drunk. At least I can tell myself that I didn't get behind the wheel and endanger people's lives (which I do often) or that I didn't end up in a dangerous place surrounded by dangerous people where my own life was in danger (which I do often)...
I'm not trying to minimize it or tell myself that it's okay or normal. I am beginning to accept that when I drink I become argumentative, belligerent...mean. That's not who I really am, that's not me and I don't want to do it anymore.
If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. The Promises
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
-- Edited by Doll at 14:22, 2006-07-18
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