A little bit nervous here! My sponsor just called to see if I was still going. I said 'yes', she said, "I'll be there to support you" which means I gotta tell them I relapsed and pick up another white surrender chip at the end of the meeting! Thing is the 5:30 on Mondays is women only! I never really cared for those cause it usually turns into a "bitch and moan session" and although they will be extra supportive during the meeting, but after, oh boy, it's a free for all gossip session. I'm trying to stay focused on why I'm there and not worry what others think (it's none of my business right?!) If I can get thru this F2F, I can do anything!
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
"I am NOT that important, I am NOT that important, that every woman there will have an OPINION of me, and not be talking about and dealing with her OWN everyday drama...
When I get scared about something I am projecting, I do the "Everything is going to be o.k., everything IS O.K". montra in my head, and turn up the volume so loud, that I cannot hear about what it is I am afraid of.
I just want my head to shut-up!.
I hope that your fears evaporate tonight. Poof, there are Gone.
