This guy that I consider a friend came to the meeting last night. Haven't seen him in a couple weeks. He waited 'til the meeting was almost over to share. Turns out he made a suicide attempt while 'sober'. Really hurt to hear that. I had talks with him on the very subject more than a few times. Well, he just got out of the hospital. I pulled him aside after the meeting and had a long talk with him. A good one at that! I'm going to go to some new meetings with him, well new for me anyhow, starting tomorrow. People need friends in this program. I know I do. So I'm going to try to be a friend to people that will let me. Actually I have been trying and succeeding!
A.A. has taught me a better way of living. I need to get outside of myself and be willing to help friends or aquaintances when the need arises. And I have to be willing!
taking on too much in jobs.... not having boundaries in the workplace
sharing too much about my addiction with a venomous co-worker
not getting my oil changed as often as I should
getting too codependent with a particular past sponsee
being asked to lead a few years ago, and spitting out a 'man-hating' convention... LOL
going for 6 months without a homegroup
'brushing over' Step 11... (now revisiting it with fervor)
using too many 'should'ves on myself (baseball bats in disguise)
getting too involved in politics and world-affairs at one point, stayiong up all night on the computer arguing politics on the Yahoo News message boards..
I'm sure there are more glaring things than these... but this will work, for all intents and purposes.
