I met up with a mate on wednesday, not seen her for a long time.. So kcufing great to see her, we had so much to catch up on.. talked for about 3 hours whilst walking by the river.. ..
I didnt drink that night.. .. When got home i went to sleep (kinda) went through 4 t-shirts and 2 boxer shorts cos of sweating/withdrawls. Last night.. i felt like drinking, i even bough the drink.. but i did not drink it... i just kinda sat it out.. and watched tv etc.. took a nytol (sleeping aid).. and had amuch better night.. had to change t-shirt once...
Yesterday i was quite irriatable and almost angry at my situation.. INfact last night infront of mirror i was pointing and tellling myself to stop being a kcufing ntuc a few times.. .. like stop being a kcfuing drbarsta you are not kcfing drinking!! sort of thing!! and it worked.. i did it last night..
Tonight though.. i tried for while .. but i drank tonight ffs.. it was not a case of not having control cos i could have easily not drank tonight..i could hav done it wihtout it being that hard.. but i chose to drink.. !! ffs.. how stuipd!!!..
Anyway after a few drinks i decided i had to get to meeting so i went to one (yeah got a taxi).... So glad i went.. a good meeting.. Woman at end spoke to me..
I think i really like THIS meeting...
Ironic thing is that its taking the drink to get me there!! Doh!...
Anyway i went to another meetin tonight, really enjoyed it.. glad i went...
Gota get up in aobut 7 hours to get ready for work, and earn some extra money..!!
My computer is acting funny too. Really don't feel like going through all the trouble to get it running good. Takes hours and I don't have the time!
Glad to hear the news Rob. Any kind of progress is good! I am really happy that you have actually found a couple meetings you like. For me it seems like the more different meetings that I check out, eventually I find good ones and make them regular meetings.
Glad you're moving forward Rob. I've been going thru Rob Posts withdrawal, so glad your pc is cooperating enough that you were able to get a post thru. Keep it up, it'll all be good if you keep pluggin' away. Love Wren
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Good to see you here again, PC's.... I think.... I like Phil's Rx on them.
And so happy for you that you are beginning to find some meetings that you like, they will start to "grow on you" hope so, pretty soon that can take on the feeling of "My Meetings", and that feels SO Great when that happens.
Glad you went to another meeting! "Fake it till you make it" is what they say in AA. I was in and out for two years. I think it may just work this time. *I pray*
Anyway, have you thought of going to a inpatient treatment center? Or at least detox to help you through the hardest few days? It can really help ya know. Take care and keep coming back.
