Hi there You. Love to see you doin' it to it. But you know that. The guy that seemed reluctant? Probably preoccupied. When I first came into AA, all those new faces, my fears, etc. I was so hypersensitive, oh jeez, if someone in a room of 50 farted, I knew, just knew, it was directed at me. Bottom line is, I was shocked after a few months to realize that those people weren't sitting there just waiting to check me out, or take my inventory. They were there for themselves and for me, nothing more, nothing less. Our feelings are so raw and exposed, in fact most of the time mine still are. But now I know that people have better things to do than sit around waiting to see me f up. They're too busy worrying about other things, mmm, like their lives. I bet the guy didn't even register that you felt put off by him. Yeah, I remember my feelings emerging, felt like they were all sitting right on top of my skin. Just waiting to be hurt or rejected. Then I found out the rest of us felt the same way.
And you talked again! That is so right on, Rob. Made my whole day...big hug, Wren
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Hi there You. Love to see you doin' it to it. But you know that. The guy that seemed reluctant? Probably preoccupied. When I first came into AA, all those new faces, my fears, etc. I was so hypersensitive, oh jeez, if someone in a room of 50 farted, I knew, just knew, it was directed at me. Bottom line is, I was shocked after a few months to realize that those people weren't sitting there just waiting to check me out, or take my inventory. They were there for themselves and for me, nothing more, nothing less. Our feelings are so raw and exposed, in fact most of the time mine still are. But now I know that people have better things to do than sit around waiting to see me f up. They're too busy worrying about other things, mmm, like their lives. I bet the guy didn't even register that you felt put off by him. Yeah, I remember my feelings emerging, felt like they were all sitting right on top of my skin. Just waiting to be hurt or rejected. Then I found out the rest of us felt the same way. And you talked again! That is so right on, Rob. Made my whole day...big hug, Wren
yeah you are right.. hes not there for me... just i think he spoke to me the night bfore i cant rem.. omg i wish i was sober.. or atleat not THIS kcfud! right now... oh my head...
Love to see you doin' it to it. But you know that. The guy that seemed reluctant? Probably preoccupied. When I first came into AA, all those new faces, my fears, etc. I was so hypersensitive, oh jeez, if someone in a room of 50 farted, I knew, just knew, it was directed at me. Bottom line is, I was shocked after a few months to realize that those people weren't sitting there just waiting to check me out, or take my inventory. They were there for themselves and for me, nothing more, nothing less. Our feelings are so raw and exposed, in fact most of the time mine still are. But now I know that people have better things to do than sit around waiting to see me f up. They're too busy worrying about other things, mmm, like their lives. I bet the guy didn't even register that you felt put off by him. Yeah, I remember my feelings emerging, felt like they were all sitting right on top of my skin. Just waiting to be hurt or rejected. Then I found out the rest of us felt the same way.