Today is turning out to be a truly wonderful day for me.
Earlier this morning, I sat and re-read my Step 1. I had poured out everything in it. All of the dreadful things that I had done and thought whilst drinking where there for me to see in black and white. I couldn't believe the very words that I had written. I thought back to just how unmanageable my life had actually become and how I just couldn't/wouldn't see it at the time.
Then, I sat and reflected on how good my life is becoming day-by-day. No more hangovers, no more lying and cheating, no more blackouts, no more hiding my alcoholism. No more hiding behind a solid wall and the impenetrable mask that I had built up for myself. No more treasuring of all my resentments. No more ruined relationships/friendships. The list is endless.
Today, I have the freedom to be me and to embrace my alcoholism. Today, I have a choice about so many more things in my life that alcohol had taken away from me. Just for today, I have the choice not to drink.
How far I have come from crawling back into the rooms of AA. I now walk with my head held high. All day I have felt such an inner peace and optimism. I have never felt this way before. I want to stay on this pink, fluffy cloud for just a little bit longer!
I have AA and all of the wonderful people that I have come to know through the rooms and through this forum for this. I am a truly grateful alcoholic. I am a very lucky alcoholic. Thank you to everyone here for helping to keep me sober.
Have a wonderful day, folks.
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Yes, I truly do believe that we are the lucky ones. I have just got back from an AA meeting and one guy shared that his long time neighbour had fairly recently joined AA. He was thrilled for him. After only a few weeks the guy died from a heart attack. But, his widow and daughter were so grateful to AA for ensuring that his last few months had been sober ones.
My heart goes out to all those who are still suffering and I hope that they find AA.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Thanks so much for that. It was great to read. I was just having such a great day and I couldn't keep it to myself. I'm working on making today just the same. This pink, fluffy cloud is nice and comfortable!!!
Have a super day and take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
