Out of my choices for tonight i decided to go fishing. I caught a CHUB... It weighed about 1 pound or just over, not a massive fish by any accounts but im chuffed to bits, ever since seeing one on a dvd i really wanted to catch one but held no real hope as yet due to where i have been fishing. Dad told me i caught them as a kid but i dont realy remember.. So i was/am well excited..
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On a more topical note, my Mum told me last night that she was very depressed and so unhappy at the moment. I phoned her during my morning break today to see how she was, she asked me more about aa and what had happend at the meetings i had been to and if you had to tell them your name etc.. I am hoping she might call the helpline herself but duno if she will. Im hoping she might let me take her to a meeting on friday... We shall see.
Well done on catching a chub! I'll bet that felt good. I don't know much about fishing, but aren't they meant to be hard to catch?
I'm so sorry that your Mum is depressed and very unhappy at the moment. That has to be hard for you to hear. I really do hope that she will 'phone AA and that you can both go to a meeting together.
You'll both be in my prayers tonight.
Take care, won't you?
Carol
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Thanx, yeah its horrible to see my mum so depressed but if thats the first step of the ladder to gettin better then i welcome it.. .. i think id rather see her sober and depressed for the moment than appear momentarily happy whilst drunk... at least i could have a conversation with her. She has been drinking tonight, words not quite right but atleast together enough to talk to. Shes reading her book that shes really into at the moment.. She seemed pleased for me when i told her bout catching the Chub especialy at my obviouse excitement. Usualy she would have had trouble gettin any clear words out.. actualy at that time of night she would have been completely gone so maybe things are gona improve but too early to tell, Im glad we've spoken to each other about it.. IM so glad i told her i have been to aa and have spoken online to people about it etc.. It feels bloody good to be out in the open... atleast with her, Dad doesnt know. But when i went well ott with the drink on sunday i had left my pc on and it was playing music on a loop, dad came in in middle of night trying to turn it off, i just leaned up quickly and clicked the sound button of my amp off and laid back down... .dad must have shut my pc down i think, i dont think i did it later... And i think there was a good chace that the main page for this site was on the screen.. I think he probably saw it as he did make one reference to me being off because of alcohol when mum asked something about me being off the other day...
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Yeah, actualy i had forgotten that, it is suposed to be very hard to catch them, that make me feel even better
Funny actualy, most people like the idea of fishing and having a beer, but i duno that doesnt realy appeal to me much..
Not long before i caught the fish i was thinking that part of me wanted to be at home drinking but i was happy to stay there fishing, especialy glad when i landed the Chub.. i did catch a Dace too and missed a few other bites, was a nice night. It seems this part of the River Thames has suddenly come back to life, iv heard other stories of some really big fish being caught and seen.. . Up untill recently people regarded it, as far as i had heard as really poor for fishing... So the new stories i heard today have given me some new hope and excitement especialy as its only about 5-6 miles drive from my house. Anyway waffling on abit now.
... Post abit disjointed cos i went back up and added to top of it... Very tired think my bed is calling.
That is so kewl your mum and you can talk and be so honest.I dont know much about fishing but I do know when you catch something that is good.Glad you had a good day.
Seeing your Mum so depressed must be hard, but as you say, if it's the first step of the ladder then it will be worth what you are both going through right now.
I keep thinking about being honest with my parents, but I'm not sure that they would be ready to hear it. Mum will definitely have heard a difference in my voice over the 'phone. But, perhaps, I will leave it at that for a while. I don't want to hurt them. Maybe next time I go to visit them I can think about it.
I know that towards the end of my drinking I was always depressed. I went through my daily routine, but nothing go through to me. I wouldn't let anyone near me to be affected by them. I was completely isolated. Fortunately, AA has helped me so very much. I am truly grateful to the fellowship.
I have never been fishing, but I see a lot of folk fishing very near to where I live. It has always looked so peaceful, that I would love to try it. Perhaps, one day I will.
Take care and have a good day,
Carol
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