There it goes again... the beautiful happy-crying thing again...
Just wanted you all to know that I am so in awe of so many of you and your journey(s)...
I just started crying again after decades, and have not shed a 'pain-tear' yet (I know they will come at some point...) but I am being washed with tears of joy at the least profound, littlest yet biggest of things.... just loving and feeling loved and being free of the bondage of the jug and the dope.... (sniff sniff...)
This is far better than any substance that is out there, and believed me, I tried thwem all... if I didn't get addicted or like it right away, I kept doing it until I WAS addicted.... LOL (sadly...)
I know some of you are going through rough timed right now... hope none of you are ready to BARF at my joy lately.... LOL life has it's up's and downs, and unfortunately, this too shall pass... but enjoying the heck out of it right now.
Thanks for the continued welcomes here.. this is a second home for me...
Well I have been on the verge of tears all day, cannot seem to break the barrier.
But I do agree, if only we could convey the Joy of Being Alive and living in the Sunlight of the Spirit, to those who still suffer with this Disease.
We were just looking in all the wrong places with the drugs and Alcohol, struggling in all that darkness, in the Grip of this Disease and then this Miracle happens, and we are on the shore, shakey, but somehow freed from this Deadly Disease, just one day at a time, thanks to a very Loving God.
Many years ago, I saw that little card, in a Meeting, on "We are the Chosen" and I remember thinking "How arrogant" How little I knew then that life would finally reveal itself to me, all the gut wrenching pain that goes with life being life, and then all that awesome Joy of simply being ALIVE. The simple ability to give love and receive Love.
So go ahead dearie, crying is a form of Celebration, happy or sad, a Celebration of being alive and feeling.
So happy you landed on this shore, here with us, facinates me how life reveals different turns and new shores to me, too.
I just wanted to say that I know exactly where you are coming from. After decades of my boozing, to be finally free of the appalling slavery, and to have my emotions back is the most wonderful feeling that I think I have ever had.
I have cried with joy, frustration, happiness, anger and soppy adverts on TV that include cute babies and fluffy animals!!!
But, I wouldn't change a thing of what I am feeling right now. It's as if my eyes have suddenly been opened and I'm seeing the world for the first time, complete with all of its colours.
Heck, if this is sobriety - I'm addicted!!!
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
We stand and applaud with you for your joy.It is great to have tears of joy when most of spent most of our tears on tragic trauma so that is wonderful.
