I have missed my regular meetings this week so I thought I would share here. Not too much going on in my life, just regular day to day stuff. I am doing ok physically, some good days, some bad. My son is feeling much better after his bike accident. Sports day at the school tomorrow. My kids are on the blue team - Go Blue!
My husband is driving me totally nuts. He is such a grouch and so conservative. I have actually gotten less conservative since I quit drinking. That is mostly because I now have the courage and self esteem to actually be myself and not try to be a perfect good girl. That is the crazy part of my story, I would always try to be the perfect wife, hostess, mother, etc. and I would end up getting totally wasted and acting very "unladylike". Such a twist. Who would have thought that becoming sober would have made me less conservative. It has been very liberating. I remind myself of Susan Sarandon in the Banger Sisters. Actually, I have a Motley Crue t-shirt that I was wearing today. No way I would have worn that when I was drinking. I would never have wanted anybody to know I was a rocker chick at heart.
I have no idea where I am going with any of this. Just checking in and keeping connected with you guys. I am not going to proof read this because I know I will edit out most of it. Silly girl.
Was just thinking...and this is my opinion only...sharing experience...
I firmly believe that we made those around us..just as sick or sicker than we were...
And they werent the alcoholic...
But they seemed to take on..all the alcoholic characteristics...
When we got sober..and start getting better...unless they have a program..they dont get better...and it sure can distance a relationship...as one grows and the other doesnt..
I also share that any relationships Ive been in...and going to AA...my partner at the time felt alienated....because AA and the people in AA...came first....and they felt left out...even tho they attended open meetings with me..periodically...
It seemed there was a lot of jealousy there...
I remember someone saying to me.."You might as well be drinking...I saw more of you then...than I do now...
Im not in a relationship now...but looking back I can understand it...
Oh well.. Balance....
As for meetings? I have to go twice a week..for a "Check up from the neck up" or my brain..can still move to my butt...if I dont..
Im rambling now.:) You have a good night...
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
Guess who was playing at the first rock concert I went to? Yep, Motley Crue! God that was a long time ago. Girls, girls, girls. LOL! I remember when they played Shout at the Devil, everybody went nuts. Pretty wild and very good! Take it easy.
Way back in the Hollywood days we we go see Motley Crue at the clubs,such wild times!
You go girlfriend! It's nice not to be perfect any more. I now go out of the house without makeup,but I have yet to show up at a meeting without makeup LOL. I remember doing a PTA event and showing up hung over the day of it. I was running with about two dozen donuts and fell flat on my face! So much for being the perfect PTA mom. I no longer do PTA events just because i found out that trying to be everything was not healthy for me,so I just stick to giving out cash and use my time to be with my kids. Good morning to you and glad your son is better.
I spent some time in Hollywood at the Whiskey and the Rainbow myself. The Girls, Girls, Girls tour was also my first concert. Ah, the good (?) old days. Actually, things were still fun then.
