I have been reading posts and am so happy to see some new members reaching out. Welcome to you! I look forward to getting to hear your experience. Rather than saying "keep coming back" I would rather say "stay!". I am glad you are here. The program really does work. We all went through a lot of crap before coming in - either low bottom or high bottom. Alcohol robs you of the life you deserve. You are on the right track. I don't think there are many people who wondered if they were an alcoholic who did not have a drinking problem. It is like gambling. I do not lay awake at night and wonder if I have a gambling problem - I don't. I never give it a second thought. I bet people who do not have a drinking problem do not lay awake at night wondering if they have a drinking problem either. Just a thought.
For those following my adolescent saga, I have not returned my client's telephone call yet. I know it is childish, but I am going to wait until Monday. I can't help myself. Silly game, I know. I never claimed to be well yet!
I hope everyone has a good day today. Take care and lots of love to all of you!
Thank you so much. This is my first time here....oh actually, my first day attempting sobriety. I went through treatment at Hazelden at least 12 years ago and managed to stay sober for about 1 week after I was discharged. I have since blazed a burning path of destruction in my life, roaring like a huge ball of fire, ripping up every sign of life in my path.
Geez, I'm 45 years old, have 5 beautiful grandchildren and I'm still the WILDEST woman at every bar in town. After 2 DUI's and multiple personal problems; not to mention a few scrapes with life and death, I believe I have come to the conclusion that there is another life out there for me. I have always been bewildered and in awe of those I know that have gotten sober and stayed that way. I guess I have never felt I have enough confidence to do that.
I know the saying "sick and tired of being sick and tired" and I feel it is understatement in my life. I am tired...no exhausted, all the time. Sick? Currently I am on 8 medications for an assortment of problems from depression, insomnia, restless leg syndrome, high blood pressure, stress, you name it, I take it. I live in Rochester, MN and my doctors are from the world famous Mayo Medical Center...hmmmmm....I want to just shake one of them and say "has it ever occurred to you to diagnose someone with "alcoholism"? Kind of ties all these symptoms together, eh?" but who would want to volunteer such information, they might actually force me to get help.
Anyway...consider this my first, baby step in facing my problems and facing this horrendous disease in the eye. I need all of you, NOW...I am desperate and I know that God placed me in your message at this time.
Please pray for me and I will for you. Together, I know we can do this.
Welcome to the board. Sounds like you are in the right place. Thank you for posting about your experience. Taking the first step can be really difficult but the rewards are amazing. I posted the Promises above. These really do come true. They have for me anyway. Keep coming back Terri. I am really glad to meet you.