In the words of CYPRESS HILL I WANNA GET HIGH....SO HIGH,
Yet I shall not.
I have just indured the worst week of my entire life (to date) and I just want to drink away the pain and hurt but I shall not.
If I were a normal person I would have hit the bottle right off, but I shall not.
For those of you who read my last post you will know that I had lost my baby and had had a couple of nights of drinking. Well anyway that didn't last for more than a couple of days I am glad to say. But....
I have just got out of hospital after losing the remainder of it and loosing 3-4 pints of blood and having to go through the most indignant procedure.
I feel sick, I feel numb, I feel Pi**ed off and I wanna drink sooo bad just to forget.
Yet I shall not....why, I don't honastly know, One part of me is saying 'Go on girl, do it, go and get shi* faced'. And the other half of me is saying 'No, don't be such a fool, haven't you been through enough recently?'
Hi Flumpy. Good for you, I am inspired by your strength at this obviously terrible time.
My prayers go to you and I thank you for giving me the strength to overcome my insignificant problems.
(That sounds like so much bullsh*t but I mean it with total sincerity).
You've lost 3-4 pints of blood...... Don't Drink.... it will REALLY MESS YOU UP.
Lots of water and a good sleep + meetings when you can.
Thanks for being here.
Bye for now
Chris
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That sounds awful. I feel for you. Please don't drink though. YOu will lose even more and wake up feeling even worse. When my Mom died, I drank through the whole thing because I thought it would make me feel better. Well, every day I just woke up really missing my Mom and having a hangover. It sucked. It made it worse.
I have read some of your posts chris and you don't seem to be in your happy place at the moment either, this I hope willl sort it's self out, sooner rather than later. Thankyou for your kind words that have helped me some, It's just really a case of mind over matter, but that I spose you already know.
I think we are all entitled to the odd slip here and there, just as long as we are able to pick our selves up when the time is right and say "enough is enough".
Wrbeachbum, Hello I'm not sure we have met? so 'Hello'
I too drank soo much first when my dad died and then I was still drinking a year later when my mum died too, so I know exactly where you are coming from on that one, I would wake up in the morning feeling soo bad you wouldn't belive, and I had a young child to care for also. This I think was my lowest point, But I have over come that now (for the most part anyway).
And I also understand what you mean but saying you woke up missing your mom more, This is my trouble, I don't show my emotions, partly why I drank so much, and even going through what I have just been through I have only cried once and that lasted all of about 30 seconds, And so yes this all does make the whole saga much more than it really should be.
Anyway's thankyou again.. I think I went a bit off track at the end, but ya know what I mean don't ya?? ( I hope!!) Take care both of you...and all of you,
Hi Flumpy...we've not met yet...I'm Dana. (((((((HUGS))))))) I'm so sorry for your loss....I've been there. Don't drink, go to meetings, and pray, my friend....and come here.
You sure have been though a rough time, a very deep personal loss, and now a lot of Physical stuff, and physical pain.
My heart goes out to you dear. Horrible to hear what you had to endure, a memory that will stay for a long time, I am sure.
Drinking would only exasperate the condition. Making it worse, tenfold, at least. Alcohol is a Downer, and sounds like it is the last thing you need right now, another downer.
Hope to hear from you as you regain your strength, and physical health.
Hoping you will have a speedy physical recovery, and the emotional recovery, well that is between you and your Higher Power.
