Hi All. I'm Chris and I'm A raging alcoholic with a big problem.
Have been drinking for about 3 weeks again, just having completed a detox...... F*****g Idiot.
Big arguement with wife tonight.... told her the truth.
Losing it big time at the moment... I don't have any excuses, just failed.
I'm a very lucky man, my wife is still on my side... for now.
I've been away from meetings for 2 weeks. Back next week.
I will be here more. Bye for now.
Best wishes.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
You're here, your posting and you aren't giving anyone any bs, including yourself. I think that's pretty damned good. Shit happens, we're human. Every slippery place we go, hopefully we'll learn to have better footing, for the next time we pass that way. I'm just glad you're here. Yes, meetings. And meetings.......Wren
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i found god in myself/and I loved her/i loved her fiercely--Ntozake Shange
Well good to see you right here. Rigerous Honesty, that is what it takes, my dear friend, hope that the meetings are now the ones that don't push religion, Just Recovery, you mentioned that you had found one such meeting.
i dont know if this is any help to you chris, but when i kept slipping when i first came into recovery an old timer told me to get on my knees and ask my higher power for help, as i was very unspiritual [understatement!] at the time it wasnt easy, but i tried it and it did work, oh yeah, reading the "big book" helps too! and uh now that i think of it....meetings too ..oh yeah, and a sponsor...god i hope i dont sound to preachy. thanks for sharing!
Keep coming back Chris. You have a lot to offer. I know you don't believe in God so I will share this one saying with you. Religion is for people trying to stay out of hell and spirituality is for those of us that have already been there.
Two completely different things.
Hope you get to some meetings real soon. Can't stay sober without them. At least I can't.
Thank you for your honesty. Lots of good advice on this board and in meetings. I hope you can make it to a meeting today and I hope you don't drink today.
Day 1. Just woken up. No alcohol in the house and time to start being sober again.........
Hope it works.
Have a good day everyone, bye for now.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
hey chris, part of recovery a BIG part is TOTAL honesty .....someting u just gave to us and yourself by admitting your slip......
remeber PROGRESS not perfection and there are times i have to start my day all over again, several times.............ONE day at a time...ur gonna be ok ....ur not the only one that ever messed up........peace rosie
