It seems like all I'm doing is work, eat, sleep, and meetings. My sponsor just got back from Hawaii. I called him tonight and I asked if I could cut down to five meetings a week instead of every day. Out of the last two months I've only missed a couple of meetings. Now that I've been working for a month and putting in long, hard hours I am kind of falling apart. I just need some time to myself to relax and have some time to read the big book or my other book I just bought. Or maybe just to watch a basketball game, seeing that it's the playoffs!
I've heard over and over about the h.a.l.t. and to go to a meeting when you really don't want to but I don't think that's the case here. I still need meetings. I still need contact with other alcoholics. I also need time to figure out how to enjoy life because that's something I know very little about.
I don't know if I'm rambling or what but I would like to hear what other people in similar situations have done and what works and doesn't work. I'm just a little bit confused on what the next right thing is.
Sorry you are feeling so over whelmed with your schedule, overload does not feel good. What did you sponsor say, about the cutting back to 5 meetings a week.
Between working long hours, and then meetings, I have noticed you just come in late at nite these days, say good nite, and do it over the next day. Sounds like there is so much of the job, are you working longer than average hours, on top? Somtimes 6 days a week. That is hard to do for any of us.
Hope it gets resolved for you, so you can do a little relaxing, from my presceptive you sure have been working your a--- off, with the Program and working with your Sponsor, that has been so good to watch. B A L A N C E is the key, we all work at that.
My sponsor and I agreed on the five days. Yesterday I worked from 6 to 5 and it was tough. Had to get this one job done so I stayed late. I'm going to skip tonights meeting and try and enjoy the day after I get off work. That's my plan for the day.
I know how it feels to be totally overwhelmed. When I was trying to get to a meeting everyday plus work full time it was too much stress for me. I felt like I was failing at everything so I decided to make certain meetings my "commited" ones. I don't miss those no matter what. Other times I go when I need to. I really need to find a balance also and I'm still working at it but I found when I stopped beating myself up about missing a meeting, or not spending time with my family like I thought I should, I started feeling better about it all. I hope you can find some balance for you that works. I can see from all of your posts that you work hard at your program as well as your job. Take it easy....
My guess is that the next right thing to do is whatever your sponsor tells you to do. Don't worry, there is lots of fun in sobriety. Now is an intense time but it will get better. Enjoy the meetings!
