Well, that's all. I was tempted yesterday (whilst still hungover) but somehow managed to stave off temptation to go to bottleshop. I was almost in tears when I went to pick my daughter from daycare, but I was so overjoyed to see her (Because she had been at Mum's the night before, I hadn't seen her for a long time!). I didn't do any work on my uni course I am supposed to be writing while daughter was at daycare. I just huddled under a blanket on the couch, feeling shaky, and watched Titus Andronicus (with Anthony Hopkins - a really great film,by the way!)
I don't feel any urge so far today but no doubt it will recur...
Agree with Toni Baloni that sobriety must come first if one is to stay sober.
Wish I could post more but parents have shown up...anyway, thanks for being non-judgemental, everypone, about the non-sober postings!
I'm glad you're keeping us posted about how you're doing. I know it's rough at first. Never a smooth hwy, is it? But remember, "just for today, I will not drink". How wonderful to have that loving little one to hug tight and remember one of the bright spots of being and staying sober. You won't miss all the wonders of watching her grow up. believe me, it hurts when you miss most of your own child's growing up and passages. I'm so fortunate, I had time (well, it was quite a surprise, actually, LOL) to have one more son, and he never saw me loaded. Out of all my children, he never had to see me 'that way'. No bad memories for him. What a blessing. Wren
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You can do this! One day at a time or 5 minutes at a time. Your sobriety comes first, so worry about nothing except not taking a drink. Stay in bed if you have to. Eat a case of snickers bars if it helps. Smoke a carton of cigarettes if you must. Just don't drink at this moment in time.
when i first came in they told me to put it off {drinking} till tomorrow and just keep doing that, i thought they were a bunch of morons. but oddly enough that worked for me until i could begin to hear what the speakers at the meetings were saying.
hey this is why i go the "ONE day at a time" thing.......i cannot "do life" any other way but ONE day at a time.......when i mess up?? i can begin my day all over again as many times as i NEED to.....however not on my will, but my stronger "partner within" me who is much more powerful than i am.................glad u share w/us......peace/ rosie
Wow, was I happy to see you here this morning with that good news, that's how it starts dear, one day at a time,and that never changes, we do this one day at a time, 2 days, or 20 years. The Obsessive, Compulsive thinking does go. But my experience has been that we need to never drop our Dilligence, starts with the slipping of the thinking. many people with a lot of time go back, and because I have seen that, know that that is someone I, never want to go back to, but will always be vulnerable to. We never drop our guard in how we are thinking, use the program and the Steps of this Program to keep my thinking lined up with the Program.
Looked for you, yesterday, two or three times for a Post, and woke up and saw that good news Post, you made my day, inside.
Hope so much that you can find a meeting that will help strenghened yours efforts, in such a positive way.
Will write later, no longer can make those funny little icons in my Posts, but if I could, I would put a little guy in there jumping for joy!
Toni
And someone suggested buying a supply of snickers, or your favorite candy bar, keeping them with you, and if that craving comes up really, bad, a candy bar, or too, does satisfy the body cravings for the sugar that was in the Alcohol, relieves the cravings somewhat. i used that one for the first 6 months, made it ice cream, and a lot of it when those cravings came up like gangbusters. The candy bars are a bigger hit of sugar, so that would even work better. Just my 2 cents on the subject.
Awesome. You can do it. You are worth it. You do not deserve to feel sick. One hour at a time - keep up the good work. Lay on the couch for a week if you need to! Just don't drink!
